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OMG. I just wrote a massive fucking entry, then accidentally closed the page and lost the lot!!1
So, I'm officially the worst LJ friend ever. I have a million excuses but let's just put it down to, I'm an asshead. Here's some updates for anyone still following me:
Home:
I'm still living with my parents and working at their shop. And I hate it. Not being with my parents, I love that part. But this town, the people, the job ... they're kinda crushing me :( There's just too much pressure on me and the people, gosh! They're always ranting about "those city people" and how they kill their animals ... obviously not things I wanna hear about. The town is boring and far from anything that I love. I'm currently making plans to move back to the city, get an apartment on my own just outside of the CBD. Also, I came out to my parents! It basically went like this:
It was a quiet day in the shop. Me and mum are flicking through the crappy fuckin' catelogues and I had Best and Less. I was looking through the womens, and then turned the page to a bunch of men in their underwear.
Me: "God, men are ugly".
Mum: "Are you a lesbian?"
Me: " You're a lesbian." (thinking she was joking)
Mum: "Are you?"
Me: " ... Yes."
Mum: "Do you have a girlfriend?"
Me: "Nope"
Mum: "Well, you better tell your dad."
Me: "Um, why?"
Mum: "Because he asked me."
Me: "LOL! Why?"
Mum: "Coz all your friends are gay!"
Me: "They are not! Well ... only _____. And ______. And _____ and_____....."
Mum: LOL!
Me: ... _____, ________ and ___________ are straight ...
Friends:
I don't get to see them as much as I'd like. Which isn't my fault, but sometimes they make me feel like it is, not because they're mean about it, but because they want to see me more than I'm capable of seeing them. It's a lot of pressure. Sometimes I'm busy at the shop, sometimes I'm down or tired, and sometimes I'm staying with my girlfriend and don't want to leave her just yet. Speaking of!
Girlfriend:
Z? The girl who I've had two flings with, both of which went sour (once because of my insecurities and once because she wanted to go faster than me). Long story short: She invited me out for coffee, we made out at a party, and it some how ended with me her telling me it was up to me to take the first step because she didn't want a repeat of last time. A couple of weeks later, I asked her to be my girlfriend. And even though we both have issues still (but we're both medicated now lol), we seem to be in a much smoother harmony than before. I don't believe in this shit, but it's almost like we're meant to be together ... or at least that we can't be "just friends" :) I just care for her too much, and I never stopped. And she seems to feel the same, which is wonderful :) It's the one area of my life that I don't have a reason to cry about sometimes (that sounds emo ... it's not that bad really, I'm just a baby lol)
Later I'll post more about the more in depth, interesting stuff, but I'm actually at work now *facepalm* Has to go *work* O_o
So, I'm officially the worst LJ friend ever. I have a million excuses but let's just put it down to, I'm an asshead. Here's some updates for anyone still following me:
Home:
I'm still living with my parents and working at their shop. And I hate it. Not being with my parents, I love that part. But this town, the people, the job ... they're kinda crushing me :( There's just too much pressure on me and the people, gosh! They're always ranting about "those city people" and how they kill their animals ... obviously not things I wanna hear about. The town is boring and far from anything that I love. I'm currently making plans to move back to the city, get an apartment on my own just outside of the CBD. Also, I came out to my parents! It basically went like this:
It was a quiet day in the shop. Me and mum are flicking through the crappy fuckin' catelogues and I had Best and Less. I was looking through the womens, and then turned the page to a bunch of men in their underwear.
Me: "God, men are ugly".
Mum: "Are you a lesbian?"
Me: " You're a lesbian." (thinking she was joking)
Mum: "Are you?"
Me: " ... Yes."
Mum: "Do you have a girlfriend?"
Me: "Nope"
Mum: "Well, you better tell your dad."
Me: "Um, why?"
Mum: "Because he asked me."
Me: "LOL! Why?"
Mum: "Coz all your friends are gay!"
Me: "They are not! Well ... only _____. And ______. And _____ and_____....."
Mum: LOL!
Me: ... _____, ________ and ___________ are straight ...
Friends:
I don't get to see them as much as I'd like. Which isn't my fault, but sometimes they make me feel like it is, not because they're mean about it, but because they want to see me more than I'm capable of seeing them. It's a lot of pressure. Sometimes I'm busy at the shop, sometimes I'm down or tired, and sometimes I'm staying with my girlfriend and don't want to leave her just yet. Speaking of!
Girlfriend:
Z? The girl who I've had two flings with, both of which went sour (once because of my insecurities and once because she wanted to go faster than me). Long story short: She invited me out for coffee, we made out at a party, and it some how ended with me her telling me it was up to me to take the first step because she didn't want a repeat of last time. A couple of weeks later, I asked her to be my girlfriend. And even though we both have issues still (but we're both medicated now lol), we seem to be in a much smoother harmony than before. I don't believe in this shit, but it's almost like we're meant to be together ... or at least that we can't be "just friends" :) I just care for her too much, and I never stopped. And she seems to feel the same, which is wonderful :) It's the one area of my life that I don't have a reason to cry about sometimes (that sounds emo ... it's not that bad really, I'm just a baby lol)
Later I'll post more about the more in depth, interesting stuff, but I'm actually at work now *facepalm* Has to go *work* O_o