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So Alison and I were on the phone and she had to hang up for a second because her mother came downstairs to say that she had been up all night throwing up. She called me back and we started joking around, and while I was mid-sentence she said those 3 little words to throw me of my axis.
"I love you."
I didn't know in what way she meant it, but it certainly wasn't the friends type of "I love you", it was the real thing. I've been afraid to say it. Yes, I have fallen in love with this girl. I know if its truly the way you feel about someone then it is definitive and nothing else should matter. Still, I didn't want to say it because we both knew that we couldn't get into some form of relationship. It's hard to feel this way about someone and having to hold back. i of course said, "I love you too," I wouldn't say it unless I meant it. Still I'm conflicted because I don't know how this will work. There is only one reason why.
I'm going away to Australia for 5 months.
It's hard because we've been apart for the past 2 months, then to add another 5 months along with her going to Nova Scotia in the Fall. I don't know how I get myself into these situations.
I have this guilty feeling as well because I had always planned on going to Australia with no restrictions. There has been no mention of a relationship still, but I don't know. I am just so incredibly confused.
Cheers.
"I love you."
I didn't know in what way she meant it, but it certainly wasn't the friends type of "I love you", it was the real thing. I've been afraid to say it. Yes, I have fallen in love with this girl. I know if its truly the way you feel about someone then it is definitive and nothing else should matter. Still, I didn't want to say it because we both knew that we couldn't get into some form of relationship. It's hard to feel this way about someone and having to hold back. i of course said, "I love you too," I wouldn't say it unless I meant it. Still I'm conflicted because I don't know how this will work. There is only one reason why.
I'm going away to Australia for 5 months.
It's hard because we've been apart for the past 2 months, then to add another 5 months along with her going to Nova Scotia in the Fall. I don't know how I get myself into these situations.
I have this guilty feeling as well because I had always planned on going to Australia with no restrictions. There has been no mention of a relationship still, but I don't know. I am just so incredibly confused.
Cheers.