been gone for soo long
i wonder if i should start writing about my experiences at all. soo many, and i did it all to myself. i guess once you start gettting yourself involved with bullshit it just kinda sticks around by itself. so it kinda started with arlington then transferred itno virginia beach. i was prettty damn happy in arlington. i was living with kelly, worked somewhere i liked, and even began to feel interested in someone else. then i came down to virginia beach. its kinda nice here but i know i'm just not supposed to be in my current situation as of right now. every single impulse is telling me to quit fucken around and just go home. i don't fucken belong here. i don't even have any interest of hanging out with the people that i've met here. the only thing thats stopping me from leaving is akil. i know im going to leave in a few weeks, 3 at most, but with me leaving i will be leaving him behind, and that will just work its way into a whole lot of unhappiness. ughh why did i ever have to start dating him, we should have just stayed in our own separate worlds. we shouldn't have been together from the start but i just couldn't say no then and now.