its been sad
this weekend was acomplete waste of time. i should have went to larisa's house, that wold have been much more productive. i swear my life in new york city is becoming worse and worse, i hate evrything around me and want to get out as quickly as possible out of here, i dont know how soon that'll happen but whenever it does i know i long for that day to come. i thin i sort of kmew that everything wil be this way this year, nothin glooks goood to me anymore only nbad i guess, and no one cares, oh well, i guess that's how things are, and will always be until i leave this place. whni look outside isee the saem clouds and and when i look around myself i see the same house which i hate sooo much, can i do anything about his place no i cant, can i do anything about the way i look at things i can but dont knw if i want to, i just want to leave and move on to better greater places. in a week kelly wil be coming here , i cant wait but thats a whole week away. then want o go over to her house, she wants me there too. i dont know if i would want to live in virginia next year but i think it'll be possible, we would much rather prefere upstate or massachusetts. a third member has been added to the move away plan.the more the better. the school yeat is almost over and i've been waiting for it to be for a long time now, around 6 1/2 months and they flew by pretty quickly now there id only 3 more, what are three months??? 3 months it'll pass by. well whatever, i am ust one of those people that the way i am.byes