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I remember several times today asking myself "What have I gotten myself into?" I went into the lab today and I'm the only student there which is a good thing and a bad thing. The good thing is that I'm the only one so I get the best project and a lot of individual attention. However, I'm the only one so if I mess up, everyone knows its me. I mean I'm really excited because they were talking about it my project goes well they are in need of a lab technichian so there is my job right out of college. Working for the University of Kentucky. Joy. Don't get me wrong, I'm scared that I'm going to get out and not be able to find some line of work. I just see it happening all around me. I wish I didn't worry about the future so much. I wish I didn't worry as much as I do. But what's really nice is that I'm a 5 minute walk from my first class in the morning and a 10 minute walk from where I work. I'm so scattered brained right now. One of my roomates came back today and the first thing that Rocket does is run into her room and just decides to use the bathroom. I was so embarassed. I hadn't even gotten to talk to her for like 5 minutes. And then she starts telling me all the rules of the house. And all of a sudden I'm back to feeling like a guest in my own home and like I'm walking on thin ice. I wish I didn't care so much about what people thought about me. But tomorrow is going to be worse. I have physical theraphy at 7:30 then I go strait to the lab and then who knows... My vacation is over. But I'm going to go chill and say hi to the new roomies so I will catch you guys lata! ~Sarah