lost
I'm Lost. Parts of this world seem to constantly crumble, but even weirder is how soon after they dissapear. I think we're all Lost. But it's just a matter of accepting it. Some people refuse to be Lost, even though they are. And when you realize, there are 2 choices... break or accept it. There are those of us who are willing to accept it with tranquility while others twist and wrath until they beleive that they have found their way again. I'm not sure who i am. I am aware of my cofusion, but i cant tell whether i'm accepting it or just in denial. I feel like if i could just be free, then Lost would dissapear. If u are free to be part of the world around you, then you cant be lost, you are only where u are. i know that this seems so weird but i just want to fly away and leave all of my troubles behind. Maybe im on my way to acceptance. But i know that im not tranquil, that i am temped to twist and fight and tantrum, but i wont. I need to be happy with myself. i need to sit in that shallow bay think of it as home. i think thats what i need right now.
Friends are great, but i have found they dont always agree with you. i feel like i want to turn to family. Family will always love you, no matter how lost you are. Now that i think about it, i think im the most free in 2 places, 1) in my yard in early summer 2)at my grandma's house hangin with my NJ cousins. Im probably the closest to Julie. i think when im with her its easy to leave my would behind. To just lay on the gravl and look at the stars. Im also really close to Andrea. She makes me feel sorted. i've found that they both play a role in this whole Lost thing. Julie is always there to make you feel as if your not alone. Like its ok because she's just as lost as you are. And theres Andrea who seems to come and find you and brings you a few steps closer to the path. Overall, i guess i just mean that when they say-- "take the unbeaten path", i dont think we really have a choice.
B.
Friends are great, but i have found they dont always agree with you. i feel like i want to turn to family. Family will always love you, no matter how lost you are. Now that i think about it, i think im the most free in 2 places, 1) in my yard in early summer 2)at my grandma's house hangin with my NJ cousins. Im probably the closest to Julie. i think when im with her its easy to leave my would behind. To just lay on the gravl and look at the stars. Im also really close to Andrea. She makes me feel sorted. i've found that they both play a role in this whole Lost thing. Julie is always there to make you feel as if your not alone. Like its ok because she's just as lost as you are. And theres Andrea who seems to come and find you and brings you a few steps closer to the path. Overall, i guess i just mean that when they say-- "take the unbeaten path", i dont think we really have a choice.
B.