Hi.
--Okay. I got fired from Tower Records. I wish I could explain why, but it was some pretty big bullshit and totally unfair and not even worth explaining right now. I was fired on July 1st and have spent the majority of the past three weeks lying in bed, crying, feeling sorry for myself, thinking suicidal thoughts and watching 7th Heaven. I take things like this really personally and really hard. Chad said, "It's like you're taking this the hardest you possibly could." which is so true. I lost $100 on the register, which is not all that uncommon, and I got fired. I still cry over it.
--I really love 7th Heaven and I watch it everyday.
--Transferring from Sarah Lawrence is really hard because none of my credits transfer as real classes, they transfer as electives. My film classes are transferring as english classes. Which I hate. It's really insulting. I really want to go back, but I don't think I can get enough financial aid for this semester, but I might be able to next semester. I don't know. The thing is..I don't have a place to live. Does anyone know of any extra rooms anywhere?
--Chad and I saw Napoelon Dynamite and it's like, the best thing ever.
--We're going to Atlanta next week to see the Cure. And Jay and Amy.
--Seriously, losing my job has totally crushed me.
--Seriously, I really need a place to live. I really want to go back. Even though, it's like I told my therpist today, I know if I go back I'm just going to be way depressed because I won't want to do my work, I'll miss Chad, and I won't really have any good friends and I'll be way lonely - the same reason I left in the first place. But, I feel like if I don't go back, I'll be depressed for the rest of my life, kind of...because I'll feel like I've really failed. He said those are the wrong reasons to go back. I'll be depressed, but in a different way than I'm depressed here.
--My therapist also told me today that I could never be a drug runner because I don't have enough ambition. I almost started crying but instead I just shrugged it off and was like, "Yeah..I know."
--I really love 7th Heaven and I watch it everyday.
--Transferring from Sarah Lawrence is really hard because none of my credits transfer as real classes, they transfer as electives. My film classes are transferring as english classes. Which I hate. It's really insulting. I really want to go back, but I don't think I can get enough financial aid for this semester, but I might be able to next semester. I don't know. The thing is..I don't have a place to live. Does anyone know of any extra rooms anywhere?
--Chad and I saw Napoelon Dynamite and it's like, the best thing ever.
--We're going to Atlanta next week to see the Cure. And Jay and Amy.
--Seriously, losing my job has totally crushed me.
--Seriously, I really need a place to live. I really want to go back. Even though, it's like I told my therpist today, I know if I go back I'm just going to be way depressed because I won't want to do my work, I'll miss Chad, and I won't really have any good friends and I'll be way lonely - the same reason I left in the first place. But, I feel like if I don't go back, I'll be depressed for the rest of my life, kind of...because I'll feel like I've really failed. He said those are the wrong reasons to go back. I'll be depressed, but in a different way than I'm depressed here.
--My therapist also told me today that I could never be a drug runner because I don't have enough ambition. I almost started crying but instead I just shrugged it off and was like, "Yeah..I know."