"Sometimes I feel like a nut. Sometimes I don't" LOL Alyssa! :-)
Well I woke up at like 9:00am and went on the computer. At about 11:15, me and my mom went to get Stacey so we could go to the movies. We saw Identity and OMG that was SUCH a fuckin trippy movie! Heather, you gotta see it! After that, we went to the mall so I could exchange something and so I could get the Trapt CD (hella good by the way). After that we went home so stacey and I could do our hwk. I helped Stace with her trig report but then neither of us got it so i started on my own hwk. At about 5:30 stacey's mom picked her up. At about 6:00 I left for church. I got there and everything was cool. I felt special cuz Heather, Alyssa and Matt ran up and gave me a group hug. Church was ok. I was havin a fun time. Me and Tommi kept goofin around. It was funny. After church, Ryan gave me a ride home. We dropped off Alyssa first cuz she had hwk to do and then he took me home. It was cool. We just talked about school and stuff. I asked how things at home were going. We might hang out tomorrow. I dunno yet though. So...yeah! Well when we got to my house, he walked me up my stairs (he never does that) (it was nice) and as we were walking on my desk I just had to step in DOG SHIT! OMG! It was sooooo embarrassing! I was laughing though. Then, after that, we just stood outside in the rain talking. The we hugged. When we hugged, I didn't want to let go. I wanted to stay that way forever. I asked if he was coming in and he said he had to get home. Darn. Then I came inside and came on-line and now i can NOT stop smiling! I dunno what it is about him. But OMG! I really like him...I know everyone says he's changed but I still really like him! I found this e-mail he's written me when we went out and it was sooooo sweet. I'm a big fucking idiot for letting him get away! I really miss him. He makes me happy just seeing him. I know people don't want us going out again or whatever but you know, he makes me really happy and I haven't been this happy in awhile. No offensed to anyone else. I mean, my friends make me happy but he's different. I don't know what it is about him though. I just...I dunno...He told Alyssa that he doesn't know me anymore but I want him to get to know me...ya know? I want him to see I've changed. I want him to give me a second chance! I've tried many times to get over him but I can't. I think that's supposed to mean something, ya know? I mean, it HAS been over a year since we dated and all. I dunno...I'm trying to call Alyssa but her dumbass is on the phone with Jesse! I'M MORE IMPORTANT!!! LoL! Kidding! Well I'd better go! TTFN!!!!