Dancing in the Moonlight
I spend my days now working with some very special preschoolers and planning for my wedding day. While I'm at work, or right before or after work, I daydream about my wedding day.
I got my wedding gown yesterday. I am so very excited about that! It was quite painless and fun, and I am eager to wear it. Too bad I have to wait a little less than a year for that. But I can try it on and look at it any time I want before then.
The biggest thing now is getting the reception stuff figured out. It is frustrating and slow. My Mom and I are working hard on that.
So I dream and ponder and get distracted by thinking about walking down the aisle towards my love and finally sealing our marriage with vows and rings.
But it's not even about that.
I'm so excited about my wedding day not because of the wedding, (although all of that is exciting) but because of the man I will marry. I think that I think about living with him, spending my days being his servant and wife, more than anything else.
Together, we spend a lot of time talking about the job he's trying to find, where it will be, where we will live, what we will live in, what we will have starting out, what we will do, the frustrations and joys of having family help, the dreams we have, the wedding plans, the stress of grad. school for him, the frustrations and joys of my job.....the big things, and the little things.
Little things like "This fall day is so beautiful and I wish I could take a walk with you right now."
or "I am making apple crisp tonight!"
or "I heard this song today and thought of you..."
or "Abbie is staring at me. Max is right beside me. He's a good cat."
Together, we talk about our dreams, fears, desires, frustrations, anger, loneliness and longing, peaceful times, embarrassments, funny moments......all of it. We build our relationship.
I love it all.
I got my wedding gown yesterday. I am so very excited about that! It was quite painless and fun, and I am eager to wear it. Too bad I have to wait a little less than a year for that. But I can try it on and look at it any time I want before then.
The biggest thing now is getting the reception stuff figured out. It is frustrating and slow. My Mom and I are working hard on that.
So I dream and ponder and get distracted by thinking about walking down the aisle towards my love and finally sealing our marriage with vows and rings.
But it's not even about that.
I'm so excited about my wedding day not because of the wedding, (although all of that is exciting) but because of the man I will marry. I think that I think about living with him, spending my days being his servant and wife, more than anything else.
Together, we spend a lot of time talking about the job he's trying to find, where it will be, where we will live, what we will live in, what we will have starting out, what we will do, the frustrations and joys of having family help, the dreams we have, the wedding plans, the stress of grad. school for him, the frustrations and joys of my job.....the big things, and the little things.
Little things like "This fall day is so beautiful and I wish I could take a walk with you right now."
or "I am making apple crisp tonight!"
or "I heard this song today and thought of you..."
or "Abbie is staring at me. Max is right beside me. He's a good cat."
Together, we talk about our dreams, fears, desires, frustrations, anger, loneliness and longing, peaceful times, embarrassments, funny moments......all of it. We build our relationship.
I love it all.