Soba ni ite hoshii to sou tsubuyaite ita*
Not a long post but one that I think should get the gist and majority of it.
1. I told Ko how I feel about him.
2. It ended exactly how I knew it would and it doesn't hurt any less than I thought.
3. It hurt to tell him because I didn't want to come out and say it but did when he basically asked me if I did.
For everyone who's probably worried about me right now, please don't be okay? I knew this was unrequieted and how the results would turn out. I'm just nursing it until I recover and bounce back like I always do from things that hurt emotionally.
I am crying and probably will for a long time yet because, well, isn't that what girls do when they're rejected? (And for the record; he was really nice about it and was so good about listening to me babble on and on.) He was happy that I understood though, and I think he feels bad but, he shouldn't when he wasn't the one who had those feelings in the first place.
I did tell him that as long as he was happy in his relationship and in life and healthy, that the part of me who loves him will be happy as well and that I wish him and Chrissy nothing but the very best and happiest.
^_^ Now I'm going to go and have a good cry, like all girls do and for once both try and begin to heal the pain and smile that I can feel something that's actually normal.
* I'd whispered that I wanted to be by your side - Translation
1. I told Ko how I feel about him.
2. It ended exactly how I knew it would and it doesn't hurt any less than I thought.
3. It hurt to tell him because I didn't want to come out and say it but did when he basically asked me if I did.
For everyone who's probably worried about me right now, please don't be okay? I knew this was unrequieted and how the results would turn out. I'm just nursing it until I recover and bounce back like I always do from things that hurt emotionally.
I am crying and probably will for a long time yet because, well, isn't that what girls do when they're rejected? (And for the record; he was really nice about it and was so good about listening to me babble on and on.) He was happy that I understood though, and I think he feels bad but, he shouldn't when he wasn't the one who had those feelings in the first place.
I did tell him that as long as he was happy in his relationship and in life and healthy, that the part of me who loves him will be happy as well and that I wish him and Chrissy nothing but the very best and happiest.
^_^ Now I'm going to go and have a good cry, like all girls do and for once both try and begin to heal the pain and smile that I can feel something that's actually normal.
* I'd whispered that I wanted to be by your side - Translation