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Alright its time for the update. I think I guess. Yes. Yes it is.
Friday:
Game. Tired. Cranky. Angry. Augh.
Saturday: HOMECOMING
It was alright. Let's just say it was not as bad as I expected but not as good as I hoped.
Pictures were awkward. Lawl.
Dinner was cool. Everything worked out fine. We saved money. A win-win situation.
Dancing was a good venting outlet I suppose. It felt weird having no one to dance with though. I danced like a fool on crack anyway.
It all sort of put me in my place. Pushed me bach into reality for a bit. Ephoria seems just as unatainable as before. It feels good :) Something to look forward to.
I always feel bad post cause I'm not looking for some whole big pity party. I'm just writing it down so I can articulate it to myself. I do appreciate imput though. It seems to me that any sort of blog is really only for themselves. Whether they ar elooking for pity or not, I don't really think it matters if no one reads or everyone reads. Although it is nice to have someone care. Iono. Anyway...
Sunday: JACKASS-POLOOSA
Saw Jackass: Number Two (It pissed me off that they typed all of it out for some reason.) with the Nickfactor. I was kinda if-y on whether I wanted to see that dumbass movie or the intelectual "The Science of Sleep." The Science of Sleep implied paying attention and Salt and Pepper didn't end up going anyway. I'm so glad I saw Jackass, omg. AhahahahHAhaahah. It was fucking sick-tastic. We pretty much laughed the entire time. Such a dumb-fuck movie. Not high AND nicely dressed!? What the hell is this!?!?! Ahaha.
I acctually went out and did something on a Sunday night. It was amazing. That never happens.
I'm getting sorta stressed out about school. I take that back, I SHOULD be getting stressed about school. I have a million projects I haven't even started. One is due Friday. Oh shit lawlz.
I like my current mindset about certain situations right now. However, I only think I'm pleased with them cuase their kinda going my way. Or more like, their not going not my way. Which IS different. I'm tired of being a pussy. Fuck it all. Wait, I think I've said that before. I guess I'm just going with the flow unless the flow pisses me off. Then I kick the flow's ass and make it go my way. Lol. Unless of course I get depressed about the flow and then I get pushed downstream and start all over again. Are we even talking about rivers anymore? Ahah.
I need to stop being so mean to people though. Lol. I'm pretty sure all the bandos think I'm a huge bitch. Oh well?
Transparent people REALLY piss me off. I try to be as honest and realistic as I can. People call my cynical for this and they can just suck. I'm not cynical, I've just come to terms with some of the things you pretend you have. Hah. Don't I sound arrogant? But seriously. I'm not saying "Oh yeah I know everything, I rule" I'm saying I DON'T know everything and that I acknowledge and accept that. Iono. We're all hypocritcal but there's just something about people that are SO fake, and SO ...retarded. When you go through life saying "I've learned such n such n such and that's all I need" No. Shut the fuck up. I've been like that at times I'll admit. On the other hand, I've been brutally honest with certain things and unwilling to candy-coat or whine about it.
Gah. I guess none of this really makes sense. 'Cause everyone gets whiney at times... and I can't really be critcal of people like that.
But back to the point, people who put up this facade piss me off a lot. Just come to terms with who you really are and quit covering it up for dumb reasons.
Lots of things have been getting on my nerves.
My ability to deal with this is slowly shrinking. I might become an axe-murder so you better watch your back.
I think I'm not paying attention to what's going on. I keep forgetting things. Shit.
//FiN?
Friday:
Game. Tired. Cranky. Angry. Augh.
Saturday: HOMECOMING
It was alright. Let's just say it was not as bad as I expected but not as good as I hoped.
Pictures were awkward. Lawl.
Dinner was cool. Everything worked out fine. We saved money. A win-win situation.
Dancing was a good venting outlet I suppose. It felt weird having no one to dance with though. I danced like a fool on crack anyway.
It all sort of put me in my place. Pushed me bach into reality for a bit. Ephoria seems just as unatainable as before. It feels good :) Something to look forward to.
I always feel bad post cause I'm not looking for some whole big pity party. I'm just writing it down so I can articulate it to myself. I do appreciate imput though. It seems to me that any sort of blog is really only for themselves. Whether they ar elooking for pity or not, I don't really think it matters if no one reads or everyone reads. Although it is nice to have someone care. Iono. Anyway...
Sunday: JACKASS-POLOOSA
Saw Jackass: Number Two (It pissed me off that they typed all of it out for some reason.) with the Nickfactor. I was kinda if-y on whether I wanted to see that dumbass movie or the intelectual "The Science of Sleep." The Science of Sleep implied paying attention and Salt and Pepper didn't end up going anyway. I'm so glad I saw Jackass, omg. AhahahahHAhaahah. It was fucking sick-tastic. We pretty much laughed the entire time. Such a dumb-fuck movie. Not high AND nicely dressed!? What the hell is this!?!?! Ahaha.
I acctually went out and did something on a Sunday night. It was amazing. That never happens.
I'm getting sorta stressed out about school. I take that back, I SHOULD be getting stressed about school. I have a million projects I haven't even started. One is due Friday. Oh shit lawlz.
I like my current mindset about certain situations right now. However, I only think I'm pleased with them cuase their kinda going my way. Or more like, their not going not my way. Which IS different. I'm tired of being a pussy. Fuck it all. Wait, I think I've said that before. I guess I'm just going with the flow unless the flow pisses me off. Then I kick the flow's ass and make it go my way. Lol. Unless of course I get depressed about the flow and then I get pushed downstream and start all over again. Are we even talking about rivers anymore? Ahah.
I need to stop being so mean to people though. Lol. I'm pretty sure all the bandos think I'm a huge bitch. Oh well?
Transparent people REALLY piss me off. I try to be as honest and realistic as I can. People call my cynical for this and they can just suck. I'm not cynical, I've just come to terms with some of the things you pretend you have. Hah. Don't I sound arrogant? But seriously. I'm not saying "Oh yeah I know everything, I rule" I'm saying I DON'T know everything and that I acknowledge and accept that. Iono. We're all hypocritcal but there's just something about people that are SO fake, and SO ...retarded. When you go through life saying "I've learned such n such n such and that's all I need" No. Shut the fuck up. I've been like that at times I'll admit. On the other hand, I've been brutally honest with certain things and unwilling to candy-coat or whine about it.
Gah. I guess none of this really makes sense. 'Cause everyone gets whiney at times... and I can't really be critcal of people like that.
But back to the point, people who put up this facade piss me off a lot. Just come to terms with who you really are and quit covering it up for dumb reasons.
Lots of things have been getting on my nerves.
My ability to deal with this is slowly shrinking. I might become an axe-murder so you better watch your back.
I think I'm not paying attention to what's going on. I keep forgetting things. Shit.
//FiN?