outer space, outerspace
Today I felt like I was old. I felt like I was missing a spark that's usually there, kept hidden until I need it, just like everything else. You know that feeling you get when all these spectacular moments lead up to a climax of absolute nothingness and you feel that hollow, disappointed feeling? I feel a little bit like that. And I know exactly what is causing it but I'm accustomed to biting my tongue about it. It never got me anywhere before, and that was when my heart was in it, so it certainly won't change a thing now that my heart's NOT in it. If it's not my heart that's attached to it I wonder why it's hanging around me still, injecting itself into my head like I actually WANT to be bothered to think about it. Maybe on its way out of my heart, it got stuck on a rib or something. We'll justify it with that, lol. Just to make myself feel better.
I have so much to say tonight but I don't want to type it, I want to have a face to face conversation with someone but my roommates are sleeping and everyone worth talking to is more than just a few feet away. That's the only thing I miss about dorms...
Scott couldn't go on an adventure with me today, and I knew it was going to put a slight damper on the day, but I don't think I realized how much until just now. I've grown awfully attached to Mondays at 1 oclock. It's like I don't have to think for a while, I can just put everything aside and float.
It wasn't a bad day by any means, actually it was sorta cool. I'm just ready to go home...Kandra moved in with Amanda and I am SO excited to hang out with everyone while I'm home.
I have so much to say tonight but I don't want to type it, I want to have a face to face conversation with someone but my roommates are sleeping and everyone worth talking to is more than just a few feet away. That's the only thing I miss about dorms...
Scott couldn't go on an adventure with me today, and I knew it was going to put a slight damper on the day, but I don't think I realized how much until just now. I've grown awfully attached to Mondays at 1 oclock. It's like I don't have to think for a while, I can just put everything aside and float.
It wasn't a bad day by any means, actually it was sorta cool. I'm just ready to go home...Kandra moved in with Amanda and I am SO excited to hang out with everyone while I'm home.