cause you keep me coming back for more..
First, I must say I am completely obsessed (as of the last few days) with "If I Never See Your Face Again" by Maroon 5 ft Rhianna. Don't ask why but I love that song.
It's weird. When I first moved home I was bored and spent a lot of time fucking around not doing anything. Like, I was able to read all of the Twilight books in 3 weeks. But lately I have been losing my mind busy. Even last week with the high school being on spring break I still managed to have so much stuff to do. It's nice keeping busy and having friends to hang out with and stuff but it's really keeping me from being able to pursue finding a real job. By the end of the day I'm so tired I just want to relax for a little while and then go to sleep. I know I have time for it but, as shocking as this may sound, I am not only physically exhausted but I am mentally exhausted. My job at Belk really entails a lot of analytical thinking on top of all the other bullshit. It just takes a lot out of me. I need to get it together and pick a date to take the GRE so that will make me start studying. I don't want to put it off too long and miss anymore deadlines. Blaire hasn't gotten back to me about my Epic cover letter since I emailed her last week. I don't want to wait too long to apply and them have filled any open positions they had so I may submit my application tomorrow. I hate to seem rude by emailing her and being like "hey, I didn't want to wait for you to get back to me so I just submitted what I had. Can you get on that referral plz." But I just would hate myself for missing another chance.
Last weekend I went up to Boone to visit. Hung out with Kale for a while Friday while he was buried under billions of computer guts. He's turning into quite the computer whiz. Kaydee got done working/working out and we went to Los for dinner. Yum, ACP and chips =) We dropped Kale off at some party by the firetower then went and hung out with Amanda for a while until Kale was ready to be picked up. Saturday Kaydee made me breakfast =) then Casey came to get me and we went and watched Amanda in a Boone Mall fashion show lol. It was funny. Not her, just the thing in general. We went to Belk to visit some old buddies there, I really do miss a few of those guys. Casey, Kaydee and I got some sun at at the little pool area thing at The Village and were soon joined by Amanda when she got off work. It was SO beautiful up there this weekend, much nicer than any of my recent visits. We went to Beef O'Bradys for dinner that night and were joined by Ryan, which was nice, he's a good dude. After some relaxing I went with Amanda, Casey and Ryan to Macado's and hung out with Amanda's future roommate, Brennan, and her cutie boyfriend, Tanner for a while. They were nice and a lot of fun. Then I got dropped off, watched some Robin Williams stand up for a while with Kaydee and Kale then went to sleep. Sunday we all met up for breakfast at Sunrise then Amanda went to work, Kale went to hang out with his dad and the rest of us went out for a little relaxing on the parkway. It was seriously so nice and we all got sunburns. Oddly enough Johnathan and his Amanda stopped and said hi too, they were out enjoying the day with her parents. Once we got back we watched the Masters for a while and planned our Cruise and Stay trip. Ryan left, Amanda got off work and Casey, Kaydee and I joined her at Hokkaido for dinner and talk of body hair and blow jobs. Then I came home. It was a great weekend. It's so odd how you can feel like you're really being yourself but in completely different ways around different groups of friends. Lately I've been feeling like 5 different people all rolled into one but they all accurately represent different parts of my personality. It's kind of nice, I don't feel as burnt out.
I've worked a lot this week. The other day I got offered a new job at Belk working in the office half of the time and doing my normal job the other half of the time. I'll probably end up taking it for the summer unless and Epic miracle occurs before then. I had mentioned to her the other day during my review that I was thinking of quitting my tutoring before the end of the semester and that I would like to have more hours there if I did. She said they wouldn't be filling the office position unless I decided to take it so that's cool. Part of me thinks it will look good on my resume. Like, even though it's not relevant to what I went to school for or what I want to be doing it is "progressively more responsible" and shows that they trust me and think I'm trainable and competent. I worked in the ladies department for the first time in a long time tonight. Man, I do not miss that, it totally sucks. I also have to work this Saturday, which also sucks but at least I'm getting some hours.
Tuesday I met up with Michelle and Paige at Duckworth's after work. Well, after a hugely successful WalMart shopping spree. I went there last week Tuesday too, this could be a little tradition for me. I have a little crush on one of her coworkers but fear that one of the guys that also goes in there a lot has a little crush on me. Whoops. Oh the tangled webs... They're all a lot of fun to hang out with, a nice change of pace from my own friends. It's weird too, though, hanging out with so many people that are so much older than me. My closest friend here these days is 42 years old. She's been having a really rough time with her exboyfriend drama and it's like, so serious and different and terrible compared to any of the relationship drama any of my other friends have ever told me about. I feel so awkward and helpless trying to give this grown, divorced, mother advice.
Ok, that's all. I'm sleepy and had a long day. I finally have a day off from Belk tomorrow. Maybe I'll clean my room. It has been out of control. Maybe I can get some sun tomorrow and revive my baby sunburn.
It's weird. When I first moved home I was bored and spent a lot of time fucking around not doing anything. Like, I was able to read all of the Twilight books in 3 weeks. But lately I have been losing my mind busy. Even last week with the high school being on spring break I still managed to have so much stuff to do. It's nice keeping busy and having friends to hang out with and stuff but it's really keeping me from being able to pursue finding a real job. By the end of the day I'm so tired I just want to relax for a little while and then go to sleep. I know I have time for it but, as shocking as this may sound, I am not only physically exhausted but I am mentally exhausted. My job at Belk really entails a lot of analytical thinking on top of all the other bullshit. It just takes a lot out of me. I need to get it together and pick a date to take the GRE so that will make me start studying. I don't want to put it off too long and miss anymore deadlines. Blaire hasn't gotten back to me about my Epic cover letter since I emailed her last week. I don't want to wait too long to apply and them have filled any open positions they had so I may submit my application tomorrow. I hate to seem rude by emailing her and being like "hey, I didn't want to wait for you to get back to me so I just submitted what I had. Can you get on that referral plz." But I just would hate myself for missing another chance.
Last weekend I went up to Boone to visit. Hung out with Kale for a while Friday while he was buried under billions of computer guts. He's turning into quite the computer whiz. Kaydee got done working/working out and we went to Los for dinner. Yum, ACP and chips =) We dropped Kale off at some party by the firetower then went and hung out with Amanda for a while until Kale was ready to be picked up. Saturday Kaydee made me breakfast =) then Casey came to get me and we went and watched Amanda in a Boone Mall fashion show lol. It was funny. Not her, just the thing in general. We went to Belk to visit some old buddies there, I really do miss a few of those guys. Casey, Kaydee and I got some sun at at the little pool area thing at The Village and were soon joined by Amanda when she got off work. It was SO beautiful up there this weekend, much nicer than any of my recent visits. We went to Beef O'Bradys for dinner that night and were joined by Ryan, which was nice, he's a good dude. After some relaxing I went with Amanda, Casey and Ryan to Macado's and hung out with Amanda's future roommate, Brennan, and her cutie boyfriend, Tanner for a while. They were nice and a lot of fun. Then I got dropped off, watched some Robin Williams stand up for a while with Kaydee and Kale then went to sleep. Sunday we all met up for breakfast at Sunrise then Amanda went to work, Kale went to hang out with his dad and the rest of us went out for a little relaxing on the parkway. It was seriously so nice and we all got sunburns. Oddly enough Johnathan and his Amanda stopped and said hi too, they were out enjoying the day with her parents. Once we got back we watched the Masters for a while and planned our Cruise and Stay trip. Ryan left, Amanda got off work and Casey, Kaydee and I joined her at Hokkaido for dinner and talk of body hair and blow jobs. Then I came home. It was a great weekend. It's so odd how you can feel like you're really being yourself but in completely different ways around different groups of friends. Lately I've been feeling like 5 different people all rolled into one but they all accurately represent different parts of my personality. It's kind of nice, I don't feel as burnt out.
I've worked a lot this week. The other day I got offered a new job at Belk working in the office half of the time and doing my normal job the other half of the time. I'll probably end up taking it for the summer unless and Epic miracle occurs before then. I had mentioned to her the other day during my review that I was thinking of quitting my tutoring before the end of the semester and that I would like to have more hours there if I did. She said they wouldn't be filling the office position unless I decided to take it so that's cool. Part of me thinks it will look good on my resume. Like, even though it's not relevant to what I went to school for or what I want to be doing it is "progressively more responsible" and shows that they trust me and think I'm trainable and competent. I worked in the ladies department for the first time in a long time tonight. Man, I do not miss that, it totally sucks. I also have to work this Saturday, which also sucks but at least I'm getting some hours.
Tuesday I met up with Michelle and Paige at Duckworth's after work. Well, after a hugely successful WalMart shopping spree. I went there last week Tuesday too, this could be a little tradition for me. I have a little crush on one of her coworkers but fear that one of the guys that also goes in there a lot has a little crush on me. Whoops. Oh the tangled webs... They're all a lot of fun to hang out with, a nice change of pace from my own friends. It's weird too, though, hanging out with so many people that are so much older than me. My closest friend here these days is 42 years old. She's been having a really rough time with her exboyfriend drama and it's like, so serious and different and terrible compared to any of the relationship drama any of my other friends have ever told me about. I feel so awkward and helpless trying to give this grown, divorced, mother advice.
Ok, that's all. I'm sleepy and had a long day. I finally have a day off from Belk tomorrow. Maybe I'll clean my room. It has been out of control. Maybe I can get some sun tomorrow and revive my baby sunburn.