[b.a.p] moments of doubt

[haneyon]

Who: Himchan, Daehyun
What: 2500w, PG
Summary: for craic-specialist: Him Chan, fainting in public bc of diet. Please? :D ←and where food is mentioned, Daehyun will be.

Trigger warning: frank talk of abnormal eating habits? idk, it's nothing at all dire but just in case. (Wow this isn't at all what I was going for. ತ_ತ Might try it again later.)

Comments

[haneyon]

notifications are my soulfood, i love you. ;A; (you're so eloquent about it too. i appreciate these comments like you have no idea♥♥)

this one in particular had me flailing so much, because yes-himchan's... everything. .__.!! i can't remember which interview(?) it was he talked about how some fans said he'd put on weight (during no mercy? ahh, really can't remember) and so he was on a diet again; then was asked, "oh, so do you work out?" and he replied, "no, i just starve myself." ←it just broke my heart. he just seems so blunt and businesslike about it, which... idk. somehow makes it worse. ;; a friend of mine also mentioned himchan kinda 'still behaves like a fat kid' (like, "honestly i do foul aegyo" and himchan no the way he likes to gross people out/act the fool far more than he acts cool/beautiful like arguably most visuals do), and that really struck my headcanon hard, too. i think the fact he was brought in to look good (...being kinda new to kpop, this 'visual' role still cracks me up; but when you think about it, it's kinda... what even), in my headcanon it's like there's pressure for him to earn his keep since he can't dance and doesn't really sing or anything else. he's clearly confident in his personality; he's the moodmaker and mama, but like. that's all behind the scenes. nobody sees that.

daehyun also, imo he's like... "i was added to wail high notes" /endofstory-like you mentioned, the way he keeps bringing the 6mths thing up; he keeps saying he can't dance; a-and that fanaccount where, fan: "oppa, they said a sculpture ran away from the museum; isn't that you??" and daehyun basically replied with "omg no, tell those things to himchan" and basically every time in interviews/whatever the hosts call him good-looking, he always deflects it to himchan. ←like... xD it's funny to think he's doing to avoid incurring himchan's wrath, but on some other level i also think... he's relatively short. sometimes his face is pudgy. he keeps mentioning his skin is awful. he always has his entire head covered with mask+hood+cap/everything in those fan photos when they haven't had their makeup finished yet... sometimes i think he's not all confident underneath despite his conman lvl99 everything. ㅠㅠ daehyun and himchan both (well, all of b.a.p actually, and a lot of the idols in general, because crazy world), i sometimes just wanna wrap them in blankets and just feed them all the nice things. .____.

yongguk and jongup high-fiving each other when they ranked 5th & 6th in terms of looks just... ;A; ←BUT THIS IS AN ESSAY FOR ANOTHER DAY loool, i don't actually know where i was going with this whole reply. TL;DR i am so glad you liked the tone of this fic. ;; sorry for the word vomit, i am unsure why i, uh... it's just been stewing kjakjkjhawe (i love you ;;;;;♥)