I cant tell anymore.
Whats my imagination?
What really happened?

It all changed me.
But I'm still the same.

I've learned.
But I keep falling.

I'm very sick right now, physically.
I think it's making it harder to be happy.

I am disapointed in myself.

I hate regret.

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TODAY IS TATTOO DAY!!!!

Next time I talk to any of you, I will be in imense pain!

Yay!

(I'm super e-sited)

Uhg, for the first time in quite a while I tried to be social. I tried. I lasted a few hours. Trying to keep busy dancing and being stupid.

Honestly, I felt so lonely it was ridiculous. I can't be in crowds.

I tried. I'm no better than before.

I got my kitty! She's not as young as what I was hoping for. But I went and visited her and fell absolutely in love with her. She's such a doll. She purrs, she curls up on my lap, she sleeps with me. She's a sweetheart. Mind you, she bites... she likes to chew on your fingers... but she's so cute and it doesn't hurt so I can't be too upset ( Read more... )

What is there after this? Should death be prolonged as long as possible? Or is it better and we should hurry up and get there? Are we reborn? Is there hell? Will anything I did while alive matter?

My aunt passed away the other day. She was in a lot of pain. She'd been so strong through all of it.

Note: SMOKING KILLS

No news of kittens. That saddens me some. I need a little ball of fluff to keep my spirits up. They aren't very up ( Read more... )

My aunt is dying.
I can't get my kitten today.
I have to go watch my aunt die.

[-Donut, Doll, and Desk]