"This is the story of the year right here. This is hot water music. Put ya ramen into it."
The past few days I have been in a sort of funk. Strange mood, not really wanting to do much of anything, especially stuff requiring being social. I think it was just a combination of stress from work and school stuff as well as feeling really cramped for time to get things done. But, alas, Saturday I got snapped out of my mood and turned this weekend into a lot of fun, limited productivity but fun all the same.
After working with my favorite dr. and an overall good staff at Promptcare, I met Robin, Kelly, and Robin's friend Jermiah out at Kilroys for some drinks and breadsticks. VA met us out and we had a good time. Following breadsticks, an old friend came and picked me up and we headed to an 80's party. We had a really good time. I saw a lot of people i haven't seen since last year and of course, my VA partied with me. There were a few ackward moments, especially on the car ride home, but it made for a very entertaining evening. I love 80's music and good companionship!
Today, i tried my hardest to study and get some of my hw done for the week, but like i said, didn't get a whole lot done. I went to church where they played some new hymns that were very good. Finally, i capped the night off at the old friends house where i was made a delicious meal with some good wine. We enjoyed each other's company and watched a funny movie, then sat and chatted for an hour when i finally made myself leave. The problem with this old friend is that the situation between us has always been strange and this evening was just as complicated. The friend asked me a question and I am like, I just don't understand where this is coming from. Sorry for the broadness, but i like to keep a little more private until i really figure out what the heck to make of this whole situation. Friday night I was reading someone's journal and it made realize a lot of things about the past relationship i had with this friend. I could feel this girl's pain and everything she was going through with this person, i had been through myself. Granted it wasnt that bad, but it still was hard for me to read and not be able to help her, because i haven't been able to distance myself either. I have grown from the past though and realized a lot of things about this person and myself. Now is different for me and I think it is a good different, but I think i just need to quit saying yes and save myself a lot of stress and hurt. At the same time, why does this person keep coming back into my life if nothing is meant to be between us? I don't even mean dating, but simply friends. It is a constant argument in my head and I know the right answer, I just can't get myself to answer it.
I am sure you are all way confused right now, but at least my head is somewhat sorted out. Oh well, I am off to study study study for my test in the morning. Only three days this week, then i am off to North Carolina!!
After working with my favorite dr. and an overall good staff at Promptcare, I met Robin, Kelly, and Robin's friend Jermiah out at Kilroys for some drinks and breadsticks. VA met us out and we had a good time. Following breadsticks, an old friend came and picked me up and we headed to an 80's party. We had a really good time. I saw a lot of people i haven't seen since last year and of course, my VA partied with me. There were a few ackward moments, especially on the car ride home, but it made for a very entertaining evening. I love 80's music and good companionship!
Today, i tried my hardest to study and get some of my hw done for the week, but like i said, didn't get a whole lot done. I went to church where they played some new hymns that were very good. Finally, i capped the night off at the old friends house where i was made a delicious meal with some good wine. We enjoyed each other's company and watched a funny movie, then sat and chatted for an hour when i finally made myself leave. The problem with this old friend is that the situation between us has always been strange and this evening was just as complicated. The friend asked me a question and I am like, I just don't understand where this is coming from. Sorry for the broadness, but i like to keep a little more private until i really figure out what the heck to make of this whole situation. Friday night I was reading someone's journal and it made realize a lot of things about the past relationship i had with this friend. I could feel this girl's pain and everything she was going through with this person, i had been through myself. Granted it wasnt that bad, but it still was hard for me to read and not be able to help her, because i haven't been able to distance myself either. I have grown from the past though and realized a lot of things about this person and myself. Now is different for me and I think it is a good different, but I think i just need to quit saying yes and save myself a lot of stress and hurt. At the same time, why does this person keep coming back into my life if nothing is meant to be between us? I don't even mean dating, but simply friends. It is a constant argument in my head and I know the right answer, I just can't get myself to answer it.
I am sure you are all way confused right now, but at least my head is somewhat sorted out. Oh well, I am off to study study study for my test in the morning. Only three days this week, then i am off to North Carolina!!