Live harmlessly
Well, it has been an interesting week to say the least. This is my big overtime week at Promptcare but so far its been ok. This weekend will be the real test as I am working Friday, Saturday, and Sunday 8-8, lovely.
I received my GRE scores in the mail and I am very happy with the results. I talked to one of the PA schools i applied to and the guy was very impressed with my scores. I don't like to brag, but i kicked that test's ass (yes, i said ass cause that is how strongly i feel). Today, all my applications were mailed by CASPA to the programs I applied to. I still have to send in my supplemental app for one school and then, i have to sit and wait for the other ones to be available. I've scheduled visits with three schools between now and September. Everyday I get a little closer to determining the next few years of my life. I am excited and I am getting over my fear of not being sure if this is right for me. I've realized that this is truly what I want to do and someone is watching over me, guiding me, and reminding me I am taking the right path. I still have a long way to go and i have to get accepted to a program, but for now, I am living it up and very happy with the way things are going in the process.
Over the last couple of days, I've talked to some people that have made me realize some things. Alaina said this wonderfully in her journal - it is OK to be single, in fact, it is a good thing. Girls don't need boys to be happy. I know this and I am happy single gal, but every so often, I have moments where i wish i had someone to take me out and treat me like a queen. I want to have that closeness with one person. Well, I had one of these moments a few days ago, then today i realized that i need to be single right now. I am going into my last year in Bloomington, my last semester at IU, and I am figuring out where i will end up for grad school. I don't have anyone to hold me back or discourage me from doing what I want. Selfish? Yes, a bit, but this is good for me. I need to focus on me and what's best for me. I need to live life to the fullest the next year before entering the semi-real world of grad school. By being single, I am free to do what i want and go where I want. What more could a girl ask for?
This realization that being solo is awesome right now also made me think about the future post grad school. Sometimes i wonder if i am one of those people who is never meant to get married. I am too free spirited, independent, and constantly looking for a change of pace. At first this was a scary thought. But the more I think about it, if i did end up single, it is probably meant to be and I think I would be very happy. I'll have a career I love, friends, and of course, little Dukie, haha. No, but i really think it would be ok.
There is a peak at a small piece of what has been going on in my head. To sum it up, I guess I've realized that I am very happy with where I am at in life right now and I know what I want and need. It is a little scary to feel this together, but at the same time, i'm left smiling.
Jaime comes to town tomorrow and i am sure with Tommy in town as well, we'll recreate the fun we had last summer. Hairbangers ball is this weekend and I am interviewing a band for the IDS weekend. It should be a pretty good weekend. Count how many times i said weekend in that paragraph.
One week from Saturday I'll be on my way to the beach, ah i love the south. Ok, i'm done, bed is calling my name. Love you all!
I received my GRE scores in the mail and I am very happy with the results. I talked to one of the PA schools i applied to and the guy was very impressed with my scores. I don't like to brag, but i kicked that test's ass (yes, i said ass cause that is how strongly i feel). Today, all my applications were mailed by CASPA to the programs I applied to. I still have to send in my supplemental app for one school and then, i have to sit and wait for the other ones to be available. I've scheduled visits with three schools between now and September. Everyday I get a little closer to determining the next few years of my life. I am excited and I am getting over my fear of not being sure if this is right for me. I've realized that this is truly what I want to do and someone is watching over me, guiding me, and reminding me I am taking the right path. I still have a long way to go and i have to get accepted to a program, but for now, I am living it up and very happy with the way things are going in the process.
Over the last couple of days, I've talked to some people that have made me realize some things. Alaina said this wonderfully in her journal - it is OK to be single, in fact, it is a good thing. Girls don't need boys to be happy. I know this and I am happy single gal, but every so often, I have moments where i wish i had someone to take me out and treat me like a queen. I want to have that closeness with one person. Well, I had one of these moments a few days ago, then today i realized that i need to be single right now. I am going into my last year in Bloomington, my last semester at IU, and I am figuring out where i will end up for grad school. I don't have anyone to hold me back or discourage me from doing what I want. Selfish? Yes, a bit, but this is good for me. I need to focus on me and what's best for me. I need to live life to the fullest the next year before entering the semi-real world of grad school. By being single, I am free to do what i want and go where I want. What more could a girl ask for?
This realization that being solo is awesome right now also made me think about the future post grad school. Sometimes i wonder if i am one of those people who is never meant to get married. I am too free spirited, independent, and constantly looking for a change of pace. At first this was a scary thought. But the more I think about it, if i did end up single, it is probably meant to be and I think I would be very happy. I'll have a career I love, friends, and of course, little Dukie, haha. No, but i really think it would be ok.
There is a peak at a small piece of what has been going on in my head. To sum it up, I guess I've realized that I am very happy with where I am at in life right now and I know what I want and need. It is a little scary to feel this together, but at the same time, i'm left smiling.
Jaime comes to town tomorrow and i am sure with Tommy in town as well, we'll recreate the fun we had last summer. Hairbangers ball is this weekend and I am interviewing a band for the IDS weekend. It should be a pretty good weekend. Count how many times i said weekend in that paragraph.
One week from Saturday I'll be on my way to the beach, ah i love the south. Ok, i'm done, bed is calling my name. Love you all!