WHEw, a big breath can go a long way.
Hhaahhah sorry I haven't posted in such a long time. xD :) Sometimes, I don't have the energy or the time to post the long entries that I like. :P But now I do...well not really, but I'm just avoiding other stuff and I want to do this..:P Ah, the art of procrastination.
ANYWAYS,
Today is my 14th Birthday, and boy, it's been an amazing day. :) hahahha, I might sound like some odd fool saying this, but I love it when I see people wishing me a happy birthday on my FB wall. xD I dunno why, it just reassures me that I have friends...xD But I do love it.
SO as for presents!
chop_ninja got me really fantastic awesome stuff, like a watch that is just adorable!!! And a 2-set of hand wash and lotion, AGH, I am SO grateful!!! I put it in my bathroom right away, lol. XD
And you'd think my mom would give the most of everybody, but so far (and it's 9:30 at night) she's sang happy birthday to me and given me ....**drumroll** nothing. XD LOL eh? kekek but I don't mind, she'll probably give me something next week or other~
I am extremely grateful that I have such fantastic awesome friends that think highly of me. XD Because as far as I'm concerned, I'm just still a little child with envy, selfishness, and all those stupid things that I shouldn't have but I stilll do.(but am trying hard to keep down) I only realized today at church that it doesn't matter whether someone is more well-liked than me, more goodlooking than me, more lovable, more likeable, has more friends, or WHATEVER. Because I am me and they are they. God made me exactly the way I am, and he loves me like this with all my negative qualities, so why should I pick on myself? And just because they're more likeable, more goodlooking, , doesn't mean they're "better". We're all equals in this land! **Yay for Canada being a democratic monarchy?** Oh boy, looking back, I seem like some spoiled brat. Well, what I mean to say is that I don't want to pick on myself anymore. I'm just the way I am. XD
SO, here were my past "principle" self-putdowns:
1. I'm wayyyyy too skinny. My legs are like sticks, I have no boobs, and my feet are like...half-deformed. XD I can't even find a bra at La Senza that fits me because apparently, they only carry 32A and up. I'm a 30A. :( booooo.........but that's okay, because there are lots of models that are skinny, and you're not necessarily ugly skinny. XD
2. I'm not likeable. I say the stupidest things around guys, and to girls that I don't really know? I'm so awkward, and I can't make conversation. People don't tell me a lot of secets like Chelsea/Andrea, which probably means they don't find me trustworthy. xD I can keep a secret when you say it is. And I can take a hint. :) And Chels <3 talks to EVERYONE, even if it's awkward, and she's good at conversation! BUT THEN AGAIN...hey, who cares if you're not as likeable? You're just you, and no one can be you. xD Special much? :) And just talk to people more, it's all about talking more and more! Share things with others, and they'll probably share things with you! :D
And...that pretty much sums it up! XD WHEW, it feels good to let it all out! :) Oh, and one more thing! I think Chelsea is very lucky and awesome to have Oliver like her. Because I've finally come to terms with myself and decided that YES, I think Oliver is very cool. I don't like him as a crush, but I still think he's very cool and different! too bad he doesn't like me and finds me annoying. :( Yes, it does make me sad. And yes, I do value his opinion. XD Hmmm....I guess I was just hiding it from myself. xD
AND...i think they should get together HAHHAHAHHAHAH! (let's hope Chelsea never reads this) Just saying, personal opinion, ya know? ;) I have the right.
So, that pretty much sums up everything in a great big chunk! Thanks for reading!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 evermore
ANYWAYS,
Today is my 14th Birthday, and boy, it's been an amazing day. :) hahahha, I might sound like some odd fool saying this, but I love it when I see people wishing me a happy birthday on my FB wall. xD I dunno why, it just reassures me that I have friends...xD But I do love it.
SO as for presents!
chop_ninja got me really fantastic awesome stuff, like a watch that is just adorable!!! And a 2-set of hand wash and lotion, AGH, I am SO grateful!!! I put it in my bathroom right away, lol. XD
And you'd think my mom would give the most of everybody, but so far (and it's 9:30 at night) she's sang happy birthday to me and given me ....**drumroll** nothing. XD LOL eh? kekek but I don't mind, she'll probably give me something next week or other~
I am extremely grateful that I have such fantastic awesome friends that think highly of me. XD Because as far as I'm concerned, I'm just still a little child with envy, selfishness, and all those stupid things that I shouldn't have but I stilll do.(but am trying hard to keep down) I only realized today at church that it doesn't matter whether someone is more well-liked than me, more goodlooking than me, more lovable, more likeable, has more friends, or WHATEVER. Because I am me and they are they. God made me exactly the way I am, and he loves me like this with all my negative qualities, so why should I pick on myself? And just because they're more likeable, more goodlooking, , doesn't mean they're "better". We're all equals in this land! **Yay for Canada being a democratic monarchy?** Oh boy, looking back, I seem like some spoiled brat. Well, what I mean to say is that I don't want to pick on myself anymore. I'm just the way I am. XD
SO, here were my past "principle" self-putdowns:
1. I'm wayyyyy too skinny. My legs are like sticks, I have no boobs, and my feet are like...half-deformed. XD I can't even find a bra at La Senza that fits me because apparently, they only carry 32A and up. I'm a 30A. :( booooo.........but that's okay, because there are lots of models that are skinny, and you're not necessarily ugly skinny. XD
2. I'm not likeable. I say the stupidest things around guys, and to girls that I don't really know? I'm so awkward, and I can't make conversation. People don't tell me a lot of secets like Chelsea/Andrea, which probably means they don't find me trustworthy. xD I can keep a secret when you say it is. And I can take a hint. :) And Chels <3 talks to EVERYONE, even if it's awkward, and she's good at conversation! BUT THEN AGAIN...hey, who cares if you're not as likeable? You're just you, and no one can be you. xD Special much? :) And just talk to people more, it's all about talking more and more! Share things with others, and they'll probably share things with you! :D
And...that pretty much sums it up! XD WHEW, it feels good to let it all out! :) Oh, and one more thing! I think Chelsea is very lucky and awesome to have Oliver like her. Because I've finally come to terms with myself and decided that YES, I think Oliver is very cool. I don't like him as a crush, but I still think he's very cool and different! too bad he doesn't like me and finds me annoying. :( Yes, it does make me sad. And yes, I do value his opinion. XD Hmmm....I guess I was just hiding it from myself. xD
AND...i think they should get together HAHHAHAHHAHAH! (let's hope Chelsea never reads this) Just saying, personal opinion, ya know? ;) I have the right.
So, that pretty much sums up everything in a great big chunk! Thanks for reading!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 evermore