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[hamra]

This week has really kinda been a mixed bag with me for some reason. It is very weird being able to eat whatever I want. I've kinda been having a constant sugar rush since then, which is a bad thing for my weight I guess. Oh well, I'm going to be working out sometime this month anyway (lol yeah right, but I can plan, can't I?) so hopefully I can

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[thenumbercheeze]

I hate being overly introspective. It keeps me from seeing whats going on around me. At the same time, I hate being constantly extrospective, too, because then my internal problems never get solved. I wish I could devote half my brain to introspection and half to extrospection. BLAR!

If I may ask, what kind of support group are you going to? I'm not quite sure why I ask, but, I dunno, maybe I feel like there's something I could offer you in terms of friendship support or something.

Lastly... we need to hang out this summer x.x
I spent all of last summer with nobody but Ben (and my coworkers, for that matter), and damn I was lonely.

[hamra]

Yeah, I agree. It's hard though, because being too much towards one side can start a positive-feedback loop so you keep sucking yourself further and further into one aspect of life until you reach the breaking point. It sucks.

And uh. Well, it's a long story. Livejournal probably isn't the best place to talk about it, and to be honest I'm not sure how you or Stephanie or any of my other friends would react, and I don't want to lose you guys as friends. Bug me about it in person, though, and I'll be more than happy to spill the beans as long as you keep those beans to yourself ;)

We do need to hang out this summer, I think I would die if I had no contact with anyone this summer. I'll totally take a bus out to Bothell or something and we can do whatever it is you Bothell people do over there (because there sure as hell isn't anything to do in Kent!)

[thenumbercheeze]

Trust me, it would take a LOT for to give you up as a friend. I'm absolutely serious when I say that. I've dealt with and heard of a lot of shit in my life, so honestly nothing much suprises me anymore, as well as nothing much turns me off of people (aside from stuff like, "I want to kill you" or "I want to rape your mother" or other outrageous stuff like that).

I'm open to talk if you feel comfortable. I won't say anything to anyone unless you are ok with it (even to Stephanie). Most people consider me a safe person to talk to.

Give me a call (253 709 7956), maybe if you're free we can get dinner or something this evening. I've had dinner with Stephanie too many times, I need to even things out. lol

PS: There's not much to do in Bothell, so we'd have to be creative, hehe

[hamra]

Unfortunately I am busy this evening and tomorrow, but perhaps sometimes next week we should do that!

[hamra]

I'm going to be sharing the rent with 3 other people so that it is more affordable. I mean, I COULD work my ass off to pay the rent for a studio here on Capitol Hill on a month-by-month lease, but I already told mom about the situation and as much as I can't stand living there, I also don't want to hurt her feelings too much.

[hamra]

And the reason they can't move in until September is because they don't mind sponging off their parents for free stuff until the school year starts, plus one of the friends is going to be at Las Vegas and doesn't know for how long, which complicates things. So we decided September.