A "break". What is a break?
So I am feeling really confused and hurt right now. Today, Brad, my boyfriend, decided to tell me that he wants to take a break. Apparently he needs to find himself. This weekend we would have been celebrating our 1 year anniversary. Brad is a former drug addict and he is finding it very difficult to recover from his Drug addiction and maintain a relationship. I can understand that. I know that they say that you shouldn't have a relationship for atleast 18 months in Alchoholic anonymous. I just don't understand what he means to accomplish by taking a break. It seems to me that if he can't handle me now, he won't be able to handle me in a month or so. On the other hand, Iknow that he loves me deeply and I know that I love him. So I am giving him this month of time for him to decide what he wants to do. I fear that it is over, however. I just don't think that what I have to give him is enough right now. I have been supportive and loving but apparently that is not enough. And I so want it to be enough. He has been my best friend, always there for me, for a year now. But that is all I have to give. It makes me wish that I was more of a person, more of a pillar of strength or a woman full of heart. But I am not either of those things. I wish.... hmmm. I wish.