What is love.

[hamburgerhop]

So last night while I had a wonderful buzz going, it was killed when I realized how totally dumb it is to think you're in love with someone who will never love you in the same way. Ever since I've realized I've had those more-than-best-friend feelings, I've been a complete wreck. I've been depressed, and paranoid and just awful. Being in love shouldn't make you feel that way.

So is it love?
Or is it just me wanting it so badly that I've convinced myself that I'm in love with my best friend, when in reality it's probably just best-friend-love?

I'm so confused.

But I'm done, either way.

I'm sick of feeling less-than because he feels like he can't treat me the way he has since I met him and before I said those words that replay in my head every single day, "I think I'm in love with you." because I'll get the wrong idea.

I'm just sick of being sad.