observations
I'm in school right now bored out of my mind. I'm surrounded by freshman, and not just normal freshman, La Salle freshman. They're like 20 times worse. I've been thinking (ha to prove some of my friends wrong) lately about my "passion" for drama. Everyone says I'm a really good actor and that I should pursue it. So I just go with the flow and assume I'm a pretty good actor (unless all my friends and immediate family members have been lying to me since the age of 6...assholes). But I was thinking about what makes me a good actor and I realized that I'm a good actor because I feel as if I'm constantly performing. That no one ever really sees me, but just another character. It's natural to like attention but I seem to thrive on it. An example would be when someone flirts with me or something like that, my self-esteem goes up (as would anyones), but then it goes down if no one even talks to me. I shouldn't determine my self esteem (or anything for that matter) by what people say. Instead of worrying about what others think of me and their approvals and disapprovals, I should be concerned about myself and my own situations. Maybe stop relying so much on other people and more so on myself. Shouldn't I just be concerned and content with myself and not looking for other peoples opinions? Hm, I think its time for some change. It is time that I actually start working out. I also think it's time that I stop procrastinating and get all my h.s shit ready. It's time that I put all my effort into our upcoming show and stop being a lazy fuck. It's also time for me to go to geometry.