august 2, 2010
yesterday was alright. i went to church and heard a sermon on jesus' parable of the rich man who builds a bigger barn and then dies the very same night. it was a good sermon, focusing on the pitfalls of materialism and pride, but the reverend seemed to be implying that inequality and injustice are ok since god evens things out in the end. if that was the point of the sermon, i disagree. i believe it is still important to work for justice and equality in this lifetime.
then i came home and did my chores but i forgot to sign the red book. so i had to ask my case manager to initial my signature this morning so that i don't get a non-compliance notice. three of those in 90 days is grounds for termination of residency.
also while doing my chores i accidentally broke a pvc pipe that channeled condensation away from the air-conditioner. so i had to report that. i felt stupid, like if only i knew how to fix things i wouldn't be such a fucking little faggot.
so by the time yesterday evening ended i was feeling kind of sorry for myself, wishing i could be out drinking and partying with all the queers. but god must have been smiling on me, because at that very moment as i was smoking a cigarette this short latino guy came stumbling up the sidewalk and shook my hand, saying, "i see you man." he was so drunk he almost fell into the bushes. it was a good reminder of where i don't want to be.
today was better. i had my first day at the legal assistance foundation. i got my computer and email set up, and i go back on thursday to start the real work. it is a large office, with room for many lawyers, paralegals and law students. so hopefully things go well there.
then i came home and did my chores but i forgot to sign the red book. so i had to ask my case manager to initial my signature this morning so that i don't get a non-compliance notice. three of those in 90 days is grounds for termination of residency.
also while doing my chores i accidentally broke a pvc pipe that channeled condensation away from the air-conditioner. so i had to report that. i felt stupid, like if only i knew how to fix things i wouldn't be such a fucking little faggot.
so by the time yesterday evening ended i was feeling kind of sorry for myself, wishing i could be out drinking and partying with all the queers. but god must have been smiling on me, because at that very moment as i was smoking a cigarette this short latino guy came stumbling up the sidewalk and shook my hand, saying, "i see you man." he was so drunk he almost fell into the bushes. it was a good reminder of where i don't want to be.
today was better. i had my first day at the legal assistance foundation. i got my computer and email set up, and i go back on thursday to start the real work. it is a large office, with room for many lawyers, paralegals and law students. so hopefully things go well there.