why does this hurt so bad? my insides are dying. i'm fading the fuck away. i think i can see through myself.....

fightin with nicole last night. pretty bad. there's just some shit you don't say because there's gonna be some serious fuckin ramifications and shit like that has been gettin said. fed up with it. all of it. more later. maybe.

yeah.  it's been awhile.  life is good.. or bad.  any of you who know me, i broke up with the old lady last week.  straight moved out, like cya.  for those of you who don't, we were together for four years if that gives you an idea.  like, lived together for the last THREE YEARS. so anyway now that i got that out.. fuck it.

alright.  knee all better.  been back at work for almost a month and a half.  getting cold outside.  wedding coming up.  lil cuz sophie gettin hitched.  trying to crawl my way out of the hole i dug myself in over the summer.  good news... this should be the last winter i go through in quite some time.  that's right.  andy's finally going home.  ( Read more... )

so yeah, was just getting back to work on my kneee, everything healing up nicely. getting shit back on track. yesterday.. ripped my ACL in half. nice.

update on the knee: fractured the top of my tibia right underneath the knee. return to work... unlikely anytime soon. andy fucked... most certainly. but, really? is this anything new? stay tuned for the next turn of events from THE SUMMER OF HELL!!!!!!!

so lemme tell ya... i've been having one HELL of a summer.  see, i've always believed in karma and what goes around comes around but fuck me i must have had a whole lot of reeeeally bad karma saved up cuz i really dont think shit could get a whole lot worse.  two weeks ago i went to go see korn and got my fuckin front teeth knocked in and i mean ( Read more... )

she seemed dressed in all of me.. stretched across my shame
all the torment and pain
leaked through and covered me
i'd do anything to have her to myself
she is everything to me
the unrequited dream
a song that no one sings
the unattainable.. a myth that i have to believe in
all i need to make it real is one more reason
but i wont let this build up inside of ( Read more... )

Problems do have solutions you know ( Read more... )

Did you ever notice how shit can deteriorate so quickly that before you know it everything is shot to hell?  Like, you kinda thought that you were making everyone upset and pissed off at you and turns out they're all way past that already?  And, you know, you missed a few classes and some assignments and you find out the classes and work you missed ( Read more... )