wow its been a lonngggggg time.
so uh...i havnt updated in a long time. i cant sleep lately, im kinda nervous about school. ive learned somethings about myself this summer, but it seems i tend to...uh how you say have a relapse everytime im around people from school. when its just me i understand more things, i can see what i want to do and what i have to do. but when im around people from school they make me feel like im nothing. because most of them couldnt careless what i did, and dont like me no matter what i do.but im not sure, i want to be ok. i want to be confident, i want to be happy with myself, and just plain happy in general. but i cant seem to find it no matter how hard i search. the last couple of moths ive noticed that i am exactly who i was 2 yrs ago i havnt changed i havent evolved. ive stayed the same. and i cant seem to catch up.everything i want is all over the place, i just want to b happy. im tired of being unhappy, with who i am, with who im friends with, with how i just sit here and dont seem to do anything other than watch everything just sorta pass me by. im tired, i cant sleep...i cant fix it. and its killing me. the silent wishper of keep going has gone from my ear. im just tired and i need to rest, but i cant.because soon enough, ill have to just play out the same old script with maybe some new leads. im hopeing not to do that again this year. to save my self the bullshit. but its like i cant do it. and it makes me cry, i feel so helpless all the time, helpless to make anyone see. well....whatever.
bye<3
bye<3