Taking back the word FAT.
I have been on the path to loving my body for the last year or so.
It's been a constant struggle. I've been going back and forth over how I feel about myself.
Over the last 4 months, I have been part of an amazing group of women who have completely and utterly empowered me. I have been able to stand in front of the mirror naked and think, "Damn I look good!" and actually believe it.
It saddens me that women think they need to be thin to be happy/pretty/desired/successful. There is a huge difference between being healthy and your weight. Thin people are not always healthy. Overweight people are not always unhealthy.
I have been watching the junk I put into my body. I have been making healthier choices. I have also allowed myself to enjoy desserts, and junk food every now and then. I have treated myself to clothes that hug my curves, not hide them. I have spent extra time doing my makeup and my hair. I have looked at myself and noticed that I am truly beautiful. I have a fiance who thinks I'm gorgeous. What do I have to be unhappy about????
I personally know many women who are constantly dieting. Who are constantly saying, "BE PROUD OF ME, I LOST WEIGHT" or "LOOK HOW GROSS AND FAT I USED TO BE" and honestly? It breaks my heart. Because whether they think so or not, they are losing weight for the wrong reasons. A lot of them may say, "I'm doing it to be healthier." However in the next breath, they are talking about how much they hate their appearance. They are lying to themselves. Even if they lose weight, it may make them more confident for a short period of time, but it's not their weight that is the problem. It is the fact that they view themselves in a negative light. And if you lose weight do you know what will happen? You'll eventually find something else to hate about yourself. Cellulite. Spider veins. Frizzy hair. Bad Skin...SOMETHING to make you feel insecure and you will continue to obsess over it until you find a way to change it. And the cycle will continue.
I have always been the kind of person who has been attracted to a woman with curves. I have never found a skinny woman to be more attractive than one who was fat. However, living in this kind of society, Over the years I realized that my perception was greatly altered. YES it is more difficult for fat women to find clothes that are sexy, or at all fashionable. YES it is uncommon to see a fat women in a fashion magazine. But what does that matter exactly?
I want to be with a man that thinks I'm insanely gorgeous no matter what size I am. I want to be friends with people who make me feel good about myself, and don't bring me down because of their own insecurities. I want to be able to ENJOY food, and not constantly be counting how many calories I've put into my body, or turning away something delicious for fear of gaining a pound.
You have ONE LIFE. If you are watching what you are eating SOLELY for health reasons, then all the power to you. But more often than not, we are obsessed with food because we dislike our bodies. I am learning to embraced every single inch of me. To love and to appreciate myself the way I am, no matter what size I am at that point in time. Life is just too short.
I am so grateful that I discovered this before I did something drastic. As I said before, we all struggle with body image issues, as I still do. But I just wish there was something I could do to help women be more secure with themselves and who they are, what they look like. It's so depressing for me. What could I possibly do to have a part in changing people's minds about their bodies?
It's been a constant struggle. I've been going back and forth over how I feel about myself.
Over the last 4 months, I have been part of an amazing group of women who have completely and utterly empowered me. I have been able to stand in front of the mirror naked and think, "Damn I look good!" and actually believe it.
It saddens me that women think they need to be thin to be happy/pretty/desired/successful. There is a huge difference between being healthy and your weight. Thin people are not always healthy. Overweight people are not always unhealthy.
I have been watching the junk I put into my body. I have been making healthier choices. I have also allowed myself to enjoy desserts, and junk food every now and then. I have treated myself to clothes that hug my curves, not hide them. I have spent extra time doing my makeup and my hair. I have looked at myself and noticed that I am truly beautiful. I have a fiance who thinks I'm gorgeous. What do I have to be unhappy about????
I personally know many women who are constantly dieting. Who are constantly saying, "BE PROUD OF ME, I LOST WEIGHT" or "LOOK HOW GROSS AND FAT I USED TO BE" and honestly? It breaks my heart. Because whether they think so or not, they are losing weight for the wrong reasons. A lot of them may say, "I'm doing it to be healthier." However in the next breath, they are talking about how much they hate their appearance. They are lying to themselves. Even if they lose weight, it may make them more confident for a short period of time, but it's not their weight that is the problem. It is the fact that they view themselves in a negative light. And if you lose weight do you know what will happen? You'll eventually find something else to hate about yourself. Cellulite. Spider veins. Frizzy hair. Bad Skin...SOMETHING to make you feel insecure and you will continue to obsess over it until you find a way to change it. And the cycle will continue.
I have always been the kind of person who has been attracted to a woman with curves. I have never found a skinny woman to be more attractive than one who was fat. However, living in this kind of society, Over the years I realized that my perception was greatly altered. YES it is more difficult for fat women to find clothes that are sexy, or at all fashionable. YES it is uncommon to see a fat women in a fashion magazine. But what does that matter exactly?
I want to be with a man that thinks I'm insanely gorgeous no matter what size I am. I want to be friends with people who make me feel good about myself, and don't bring me down because of their own insecurities. I want to be able to ENJOY food, and not constantly be counting how many calories I've put into my body, or turning away something delicious for fear of gaining a pound.
You have ONE LIFE. If you are watching what you are eating SOLELY for health reasons, then all the power to you. But more often than not, we are obsessed with food because we dislike our bodies. I am learning to embraced every single inch of me. To love and to appreciate myself the way I am, no matter what size I am at that point in time. Life is just too short.
I am so grateful that I discovered this before I did something drastic. As I said before, we all struggle with body image issues, as I still do. But I just wish there was something I could do to help women be more secure with themselves and who they are, what they look like. It's so depressing for me. What could I possibly do to have a part in changing people's minds about their bodies?