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yet again...my dad is making me fucking stay home because it's "his weekend and his time to spend with us"...when he doesnt even get hom til fucking midnight so i have to watch my fucking brother and do nothing...when I could be hanging out with elizabeth or brooks thowin it up, but no...i have to sit here like a fucking loser...fun shit, right...but, here's how my day went...woke up, got in the shower, got some gas in the car, went to see brooks for like 5 hours, went to eat at No. 1 Buffet, took brooks home, picked up aris, picked up blythe, went to the G boro mall, saw brooks there in the arcade hung out with him for a bit. came home, and now im doing abso-fucking-lutely nothing...sucks fucking ass...but, o well right...but, atleast I got to see brooks twice today...I had so much fun hangin out with him...hes my boo...haha...he hates when I call him that...while hes out having fun with Kris and his GF...I get to stay here and have D.T.'s...yay...i swear, im going to run away and live somewhere else, like for real...my life fucking sucks as of now...besides brooks...and yes I do sound pathetic, because I fucking am...like, this whole divorce thing...i really thought that it wouldnt be that big of a deal, but look at what is fucking happening...because my parents are divorced I have to raise my brother and do all that stupid shit...and I have no life now...its not fair...my mom is at the beach being a fucking teenager, while I have to be in boringtown being a fucking mother...its not fair...like really...I might as well have birthed aris out, for real...its fucking ridiculous...I hate it...sometimes I seriously think about running away...but where would I go? ya know...that shit is just too hard to figure out...but I guess the good thing is that I turn 18 pretty soon, well soon enough and then I dont have to fucking do what my parents say...I will move out...or move in with someone else...because I dont have to stay with my dad if I dont want to...its the law...he is not ever nice to me, why should I have to stay with him, ya know...hes so mean to me, like for real...he cant love me...and I ma his fucking daughter...he told me that he wanted me to be a lesbian...and the sad thing is that he was serious...which is ridiculous...absolutely ridiculous...its retarded how he is...but o well...just needed to write it so Im not so fucking mad...but it didnt really help that much...but I will post later
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