i miss am(y)erica (thats amy and america. yeah, it's effin clever)
i had these two really kind of depressing entries filled with details of infirmary and boyfriend qaulms.
f that.
i'm still in prague. it's a beautiful day outside (i know i can't go outside, but i can open my window and stil admire) i only have a month left until i go home (which is good, because im' not quite ready yet). it's my one month anniversary (wooo!), everyone and their mother is trying to take care of me at this point, and the worst thing that's going to happen is that i have to go get an IV in a couple hours.
so really, if i could get the swelling in my throat to go down just enough to talk and swallow, and maybe get just a teeny tiny bit of strength (just enough to go up and down stairs and to the bathroom without falling or wanting to die) everything would be close to perfect.
the only thing, out of everything that has kind of upset me these past couple days, is that i had to give up raw. my parents think i should give it up until i come home....and i actually kind of think they're right. not because of the diet (because i would like to be raw indefinitely) it's just so unsanitary and inaccessible here. (not completely true. i was being irresponsible with it, and was completely malnourished) they strongly advised vegetarians from coming to prague, and practically forbade vegans, so the fact that i'm still living after three months on banana's, pistachios, and avacados, i feel, is pretty impressive. (subtracting the fact that i'm on my death bed now....i blame it on sleep deprivation and over exertion of sexual energy)
anyway, t, just reading your entry and 'hearing' your voice made me feel so much better, i was practically instantaneously enfused with optimism. i miss you so much.
......actually, i'm ready to come home now. I'm fine with staying; it's fun here, there's more traveling to do, i'm learning alot, blahdy blahdy blady blah..... But i'm ready to come home now...
f that.
i'm still in prague. it's a beautiful day outside (i know i can't go outside, but i can open my window and stil admire) i only have a month left until i go home (which is good, because im' not quite ready yet). it's my one month anniversary (wooo!), everyone and their mother is trying to take care of me at this point, and the worst thing that's going to happen is that i have to go get an IV in a couple hours.
so really, if i could get the swelling in my throat to go down just enough to talk and swallow, and maybe get just a teeny tiny bit of strength (just enough to go up and down stairs and to the bathroom without falling or wanting to die) everything would be close to perfect.
the only thing, out of everything that has kind of upset me these past couple days, is that i had to give up raw. my parents think i should give it up until i come home....and i actually kind of think they're right. not because of the diet (because i would like to be raw indefinitely) it's just so unsanitary and inaccessible here. (not completely true. i was being irresponsible with it, and was completely malnourished) they strongly advised vegetarians from coming to prague, and practically forbade vegans, so the fact that i'm still living after three months on banana's, pistachios, and avacados, i feel, is pretty impressive. (subtracting the fact that i'm on my death bed now....i blame it on sleep deprivation and over exertion of sexual energy)
anyway, t, just reading your entry and 'hearing' your voice made me feel so much better, i was practically instantaneously enfused with optimism. i miss you so much.
......actually, i'm ready to come home now. I'm fine with staying; it's fun here, there's more traveling to do, i'm learning alot, blahdy blahdy blady blah..... But i'm ready to come home now...