I Scream But No One Seems To Hear Me
I'm not really sure on the title. Just something I was feeling at the time. These past few months have been such a blurr. Although there has been so much time pass, I feel as though I did nothing with my life. Weird. Anyway, I've lost touch with a lot of people and its sad. The thing that is even more sad is that I didnt lose touch on purpose and would rather not have in the first place. Only good thing is that Im learning about myself. I always though those people who went away to "find themselves" were really lame because if you live with yourself everyday.....shouldn't you already know? Little did I know.....I am now a lame one. I think that through all this I have gotten over one of my fears. The fear of being alone. I actually like being alone. Change is good. Anyways, ahhhh so much to talk about and yet I can't think of one interesting thing to talk about. I'm a lil nervous about going back to school. Being in new classes with knew faces.....creepy college guys trying to get laid all the time. Being with people I just don't fit in with. It's amazing how many stupid or ignorant people there are in the world. Hopefully I won't have to kick any of them out of my car.....again. Fun times. *sarcasm* I need to get out of the habit of making friends with people of lower class because I don't think I deserve to mingle with the other groups. That leaves me looking desperate and an open target for the sleezes. (Not from a stuck up point of view) It's really kind of sad how I shy away from situations b/c im insecure. Maybe this semester I will make a point to put myself out there and not be so shy. who knows. people suck either way. However, if I have to spend a whole semester with them....might as well make the best of it. OK. I'm done babbling. But by the way....Dark Eyes I was saddened that you did not come into work to see me. I do however need to call you more to get together with you. As I said....I have lost touch. To all others I am deeply sorry.