unemotionally emotional

[halfcupfull]

the date is as its says above. it has been 8 months since ive moved to australia. and ive had 1 job and got fired from that one job. i wasn't exactly happy when i got it; i was just okay since i had the means to be able to get by and survive this place. but it was short lived since i only got 1 month off of it. it was enought to buy a few more months. but after that, that is it. my savings would have dried up if i dont get a job fast. i cant be in this mess again. here but not here. i hate being stagnant. i hate myself for it so much. but all i can do is wait i guess. or a movement i guess, i will have to get other jobs...but what i found out about myself was that i was mirroring my heart while i worked. if i didnt like the job i was not doing my best. i was just okay. if i did, then i would be someone great. and now i didn't even know what i like or what i want to do with my career. whatever problem i had back in manila, whatever feelings i had, it just showed itself more apparent here. i might have moved places, but the question still remains...whats my career life going to be like?

though i am temporarily distracted by a romantic interest. at the end of the day, im still at an odds. i do not know what im going to do with myself. how do i earn money? what career am i supposed to have when digital doesn't want me back.