<\3...it sucks waiting
this has been on my mind for the past few days, so i think ill write about it....i believe i finally understand why i came to the realization that when i came to college i would leave my girlfriend[s] from houston...i have never believed in long distance relationships, and i still to this day do not...i knew it would not work out for me, if i was to try and date someone that was not in the same general area (30 to 40 mins. away at most)...im really starting to learn why i made this choice so long ago, because at the moment i have a wonderful girl who is not in that said general area...and all though she will be back soon, at the same time im feeling that burden of wanting to be with her and not being able to...i have broken up with two amazing girls because i did not want that burden, and now i really know why...but im waiting it out, because im so excited for this new year of school to begin...my classes are so interesting, my friendships are closer than ever, and now i have this girly that is hopefully going to be a part of my life aswell...it is such a pain right now to see my friends that are couples having fun together, and me the third wheel getting all jealous...but its ok, i have been picking up tips and thinking of new ideas that i want to experience with this special girl...
i want us to sit in my window seal (wich is very large) and watch the rain pour down in candle light...i want to go to a party have one beer, then leave early because its fun but why not just go home watch a movie and snuggle...i want to stay up in the dark till 4 in the morning talking about our pasts, our presents, our futures and have that small intimate feeling of trust you only share with people on special occasions...i want to go to the river with just her and swim with her all day and just hold her in my arms in the cold refreshing water as we shiver in glee as the sun pours down on us... i want her to stay at my place the night before a school day, then wake up early and drive her to her early morning classes...i wanna take her to a ballroom dance so that we can dance all night in our best attire, and enjoy each others company while floating to a beautiful orchestra...i wanna drive to luling just to go to buy a watermelon (or even better...go to the watermelon thump)...i wanna watch a movie with her sitting in my lap the whole time...i want her to come over early in the morning and crawl into bed with me while im still asleep, so that when i wake up i have her sleeping tightly around me looking so comfortable, so secure, so beautiful...i want her to tell me why she is upset about the little things in life, so that i can make them better in a milisecond...i want her and i to drive to the beach with our friends, set up a tent, start a fire and end up falling asleep in each others arms next to the fire, as the ocean breeze causes goose bumps to run across our shoulders. i want to pick flowers out of someone else's garden, wrap them in a paper towel, and give them to her when she opens her door, thinking it is someone else...i want to...i want to...i want to...
some i hope just happen spare of the moment, some i hope happen at the perfect time, while others at the worst times possible...there is so much more but i cant remember them all at this time,and i see and pick up ideas everyday...if you have read all this and think its corny, lame, unmanly, or whatever then i feel sorry for you...there are certain things in life that may seem different to the common eye but those are the most beautiful...if you have never thought about these sorts of ideas, i feel really sorry for your sad ass...these are the things that make one person so much closer, more beautiful, more trustworthy and more of a wonderful partner than before...these are my ideas to share to you...you are welcome to take them, try them, picture them, embrace them, but add your own as well...these small details are the reasons great relationships form, live, and die...to be "corny", is in my opinion finding out who you really are, who you really trust in life, and who will allow you to share with them those small details that in the end only matter to the most important people in your life.
...lets pick roses from a field and kiss each other's wounds from the thorn pricks, lets run through a field until we collapse from being out of breath then kiss until we almost pass out from loss of air, lets trace our names by connecting the goosebumps across each others bodys with our fingers...lets smile and know that today, tonight, tommorrow, and the next day are and will be beautiful...and the next day, and the next day, and the next day, ect.....
-ONE-
i want us to sit in my window seal (wich is very large) and watch the rain pour down in candle light...i want to go to a party have one beer, then leave early because its fun but why not just go home watch a movie and snuggle...i want to stay up in the dark till 4 in the morning talking about our pasts, our presents, our futures and have that small intimate feeling of trust you only share with people on special occasions...i want to go to the river with just her and swim with her all day and just hold her in my arms in the cold refreshing water as we shiver in glee as the sun pours down on us... i want her to stay at my place the night before a school day, then wake up early and drive her to her early morning classes...i wanna take her to a ballroom dance so that we can dance all night in our best attire, and enjoy each others company while floating to a beautiful orchestra...i wanna drive to luling just to go to buy a watermelon (or even better...go to the watermelon thump)...i wanna watch a movie with her sitting in my lap the whole time...i want her to come over early in the morning and crawl into bed with me while im still asleep, so that when i wake up i have her sleeping tightly around me looking so comfortable, so secure, so beautiful...i want her to tell me why she is upset about the little things in life, so that i can make them better in a milisecond...i want her and i to drive to the beach with our friends, set up a tent, start a fire and end up falling asleep in each others arms next to the fire, as the ocean breeze causes goose bumps to run across our shoulders. i want to pick flowers out of someone else's garden, wrap them in a paper towel, and give them to her when she opens her door, thinking it is someone else...i want to...i want to...i want to...
some i hope just happen spare of the moment, some i hope happen at the perfect time, while others at the worst times possible...there is so much more but i cant remember them all at this time,and i see and pick up ideas everyday...if you have read all this and think its corny, lame, unmanly, or whatever then i feel sorry for you...there are certain things in life that may seem different to the common eye but those are the most beautiful...if you have never thought about these sorts of ideas, i feel really sorry for your sad ass...these are the things that make one person so much closer, more beautiful, more trustworthy and more of a wonderful partner than before...these are my ideas to share to you...you are welcome to take them, try them, picture them, embrace them, but add your own as well...these small details are the reasons great relationships form, live, and die...to be "corny", is in my opinion finding out who you really are, who you really trust in life, and who will allow you to share with them those small details that in the end only matter to the most important people in your life.
...lets pick roses from a field and kiss each other's wounds from the thorn pricks, lets run through a field until we collapse from being out of breath then kiss until we almost pass out from loss of air, lets trace our names by connecting the goosebumps across each others bodys with our fingers...lets smile and know that today, tonight, tommorrow, and the next day are and will be beautiful...and the next day, and the next day, and the next day, ect.....
-ONE-