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David-
I know you don't want to hear from me so don't respond (or perhaps, more realistically, I won't send this out to you at all) but I miss you and I just wanted you to know these things.
I recently put myself way out there on the dating front. I think you would be proud of me. I met someone who I honestly thought might be The Person. We connected and I really let myself open up to him. I think it was possibly the most vulnerable I've let myself ever be with a man. Anyway, about a week ago he inexplicably stopped talking to me suddenly, continuing to promise to call and then flaking.
It has been incredibly painful (I can't remember if you even really know this, but I have abandonment issues,) but throughout this, a couple of thoughts help: 1) Even though this has been crushing, I still seem to have retained the tender piece of me that wants to continue reaching out and connecting with and trusting people and 2) I keep thinking of your words to me once when I was hurting over another man. I asked you to please tell me how amazing you thought I was and you told me that I don't need you to tell me those things. That was an an incredibly powerful moment for me. And I keep telling myself that now, I don't need you or any other guy to tell me how great I am. I am great and amazing either way.
Anyway, thanks for listening. I miss you terribly. Hope you are well and are making the progress you'd hoped.
Love always,
A