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Click to viewOh my god I need to stop stressing myself out.
It's really strange to think that week 4 is starting next week, yet I feel so bombarded by assignments already. I'm not actually sure I'm having more assignments than last semester, but all the passing remarks like "wow your workload is mad??" and "good luck this sem" are really starting to bite.
I mean, I knew it wasn't going to be easy (at least, I think I did), but what really, really gets to me is that I feel pressured just thinking about it. I look at the list of things to do and my brain just flails around in circles but ends up doing nothing.
I need to remind myself that it's okay not to be okay, and it's okay to take a break without feeling like it's going to compromise my entire work schedule and that I'm going to fail and flunk out of school, because objectively, I won't. Ironically, if anything, this state of anxiety will probably kill me first.
I can't expect myself to just hit the ground running all the time. I need - no, deserve - to give myself time to get better at things. Everyone starts from somewhere, right? Right?
I will be alright. School only lasts ten more weeks, anyway.