15 years
I have never been good at expressing my feelings. I think it's mostly because I feel like I am annoying people with my emotions and I don't want to seem bothersome. Unfortunately for me though, my facial expressions always betray me, especially when it comes to expressive negative feelings and for some reasons, I'm always more or less in a bad mood which lead to me bothering people. And myself as well ^_^;)>
So instead of trying to write down what's on my mind and failing at it, I'll let someone who does it much better than me because she has been doing it for the past 15 years now and I don't know if it's the fact that we're both born on October 2nd but she has always managed to find the perfect words to touch my heart ♥
Why am I crying?
Why am I lost?
Why did I stop?
Please tell me
When will I grow up?
How long can I stay a child?
Where have I come running from?
Where am I running to?
I had no place to live. I couldn't find one.
I don't know if I could have any hope for the future.
They always said I was a strong child.
They praised me, saying "you must be strong to not cry."
I didn't want those words at all.
So I pretended not to understand.
Why are you laughing?
Why are you by my side?
Why are you leaving me?
Please tell me.
When did you become strong?
Since when have you felt weakness?
How long must you wait
for the day you understand to come?
The sun is rising. I must go soon.
I can't stay in the same place forever.
You will someday be betrayed by your trust in people.
I thought it was the same as being rejected.
At the time I didn't have that kind of strength.
I definitely knew too much.
They always said I was a strong child.
They praised me, saying "you must be strong not to cry."
The more people said things like that,
the more even laughing became agony.
I was born alone. I'll go on living alone.
I thought that surely that kind of life is appropriate.
In 2008, I was about 15 and I was there to celebrate her 10th anniversary.
We're in 2013, I'm 20, I'm still here to celebrate her 15th anniversary.
I hope I will be in Japan in 2018 to celebrate her 20th anniversary ♥
Busy days coming...Won't really help me to calm down >.>
But let's be positive: my summer holiday will start on April 19th so only a few more days and I can finally focus on starting to get ready for my summer 2013 trip to Japan, hoping it won't be as nerve-wracking as last year xD
So instead of trying to write down what's on my mind and failing at it, I'll let someone who does it much better than me because she has been doing it for the past 15 years now and I don't know if it's the fact that we're both born on October 2nd but she has always managed to find the perfect words to touch my heart ♥
Click to viewWhy am I crying?
Why am I lost?
Why did I stop?
Please tell me
When will I grow up?
How long can I stay a child?
Where have I come running from?
Where am I running to?
I had no place to live. I couldn't find one.
I don't know if I could have any hope for the future.
They always said I was a strong child.
They praised me, saying "you must be strong to not cry."
I didn't want those words at all.
So I pretended not to understand.
Why are you laughing?
Why are you by my side?
Why are you leaving me?
Please tell me.
When did you become strong?
Since when have you felt weakness?
How long must you wait
for the day you understand to come?
The sun is rising. I must go soon.
I can't stay in the same place forever.
You will someday be betrayed by your trust in people.
I thought it was the same as being rejected.
At the time I didn't have that kind of strength.
I definitely knew too much.
They always said I was a strong child.
They praised me, saying "you must be strong not to cry."
The more people said things like that,
the more even laughing became agony.
I was born alone. I'll go on living alone.
I thought that surely that kind of life is appropriate.
In 2008, I was about 15 and I was there to celebrate her 10th anniversary.
We're in 2013, I'm 20, I'm still here to celebrate her 15th anniversary.
I hope I will be in Japan in 2018 to celebrate her 20th anniversary ♥
Busy days coming...Won't really help me to calm down >.>
But let's be positive: my summer holiday will start on April 19th so only a few more days and I can finally focus on starting to get ready for my summer 2013 trip to Japan, hoping it won't be as nerve-wracking as last year xD