My Earth Vibrates
Sometimes I find myself staring at the computer screen or reading or watching TV and suddenly it feels like everything surrounding me is at a fierce vibrate. I have to shut my eyes tight and shake my head a little to shake it off, and even then, sometimes it comes back a few times- shut eyes, shake, open eyes, vibrate, shut eyes, shake, open eyes, vibrate, shut eyes, shake, rest for a minute trying to decide whether I should open them or not, peer through one eye, then the other...
then blog about it.
Okay that last part has only happened this once. I don't know if this is a mild tremor of my former panic attacks, though I haven't related them to anything emotional... the only reoccurring thing is that I'm usually staring at some kind of technology or a book.
I'm feeling patterns re-arise from childhood, adolescence, and even early adulthood. I'm trying to learn, this time, to work through them and deal with them rather than suppress them... or worse than that, counteract them with other behavior that eventually leads to demise.
This is cool. http://vimeo.com/6111739
I don't want to talk about anything useful right now.
then blog about it.
Okay that last part has only happened this once. I don't know if this is a mild tremor of my former panic attacks, though I haven't related them to anything emotional... the only reoccurring thing is that I'm usually staring at some kind of technology or a book.
I'm feeling patterns re-arise from childhood, adolescence, and even early adulthood. I'm trying to learn, this time, to work through them and deal with them rather than suppress them... or worse than that, counteract them with other behavior that eventually leads to demise.
This is cool. http://vimeo.com/6111739
I don't want to talk about anything useful right now.