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Totally forgot to tell about my anniversary. It was wonderful. I did the scavanger hunt and left little presents all over the house. I did it before I went to bed and he wakes up well before me, so I was still sleeping when he did it. He woke me up and gave me my present. He got me some earings and a crazy broach that I had my eye on. That just sounded so old of me. It is a cool one, not an old granny one. Thinking that was all, my mom showed up and said you have an hour to get ready and a limo will be here to pick you up. Confused I got ready and the limo showed up and drove me to a beautiful restaurant where Neil was waiting with flowers. Ahhh I am floating. I felt so corny that I had only got him a few corny things hidden around the house.
Neil and I are doing good but I still cannot shake this shitty feeling that i have. I will cry over anything I look in the mirror and want to throw up. I have no idea but I just discust myself. My hair is too this my body is too that, the bathroom is not clean blah blah blah. Neil tries to make me feel better but I think that he really doesn't understand. Because I don't even understand well enough to explain it to him. I want to cry, I want to scream but I don't know why? I have friends but they have their own life. I have tried to talk to a few people on here but no one ever seems to respond back. I think that everyone on here is paranoid for some reason. I just would like to chat, that is all. I would love to have someone who doesn't live near me, has no opinion of me whatsoever to talk to. I would love to talk to someone and relate to them and not have to worry if they told "Sally" or whom ever and worry about seeing them the next day and feeling embarrassed? Is that too much to ask? Maybe cause no one is answering any of my comments :(
Neil and I are doing good but I still cannot shake this shitty feeling that i have. I will cry over anything I look in the mirror and want to throw up. I have no idea but I just discust myself. My hair is too this my body is too that, the bathroom is not clean blah blah blah. Neil tries to make me feel better but I think that he really doesn't understand. Because I don't even understand well enough to explain it to him. I want to cry, I want to scream but I don't know why? I have friends but they have their own life. I have tried to talk to a few people on here but no one ever seems to respond back. I think that everyone on here is paranoid for some reason. I just would like to chat, that is all. I would love to have someone who doesn't live near me, has no opinion of me whatsoever to talk to. I would love to talk to someone and relate to them and not have to worry if they told "Sally" or whom ever and worry about seeing them the next day and feeling embarrassed? Is that too much to ask? Maybe cause no one is answering any of my comments :(