Brat.
How the hell do you think that makes me feel?
I would consider this little stunt as "going behind my back."
Do not talk to me about motivation, recognition, frustration or sadness. I will give you merit for being vocal, I recognize that this is your right and that your arguments are valid. But you are lacking in understanding, consideration and forbearance.
It's not a perfect world, but no one is out to get you. So if I were you, I'd lose the victim mentality and the misplaced sense of entitlement. It's unbecoming.
Get over yourself.