>sigh
This is supposed to be a happy day to celebrate is it not?
That's the problem. At the end of the day how'd I really feel about it?
That everyone else had a great time...at my expense...and I'm feeling utterly used, taken advantage of and plain exploited.
>facepalm<
I just can't put a real finger at all on it really. It just...you know I can't say anything in the end but I'm very disappointed. All I feel is an urge to just hug my little girl, and then go off to work.
Yeah, work. Like that is the only thing I really find enjoyment out of.
Am I being fair? Phhfftt life isn't so I'm concluding why bother. I just want to get in the car and drive away and bury in work and just not deal with disappointing human beings.
Utterly wrong feeling to end the entire day. And I can't explain where all this dark feeling is coming from. Did I just somehow finally hit some kind of "year limit" on the amount of disappointment I can take with people?
The world will expect me to just soldier on, as always.
It may just be time to finally hang up the sword belt and just stop. Focus on work, and not care about the rest. Mind you that path lead to why so many of my family divorced or suffered through miserable marriages. The "five points of happiness", I walk away from today feeling none of them. And maybe it is enough is enough.
Did dad have days like this? Sure wish I could ask him.
That's the problem. At the end of the day how'd I really feel about it?
That everyone else had a great time...at my expense...and I'm feeling utterly used, taken advantage of and plain exploited.
>facepalm<
I just can't put a real finger at all on it really. It just...you know I can't say anything in the end but I'm very disappointed. All I feel is an urge to just hug my little girl, and then go off to work.
Yeah, work. Like that is the only thing I really find enjoyment out of.
Am I being fair? Phhfftt life isn't so I'm concluding why bother. I just want to get in the car and drive away and bury in work and just not deal with disappointing human beings.
Utterly wrong feeling to end the entire day. And I can't explain where all this dark feeling is coming from. Did I just somehow finally hit some kind of "year limit" on the amount of disappointment I can take with people?
The world will expect me to just soldier on, as always.
It may just be time to finally hang up the sword belt and just stop. Focus on work, and not care about the rest. Mind you that path lead to why so many of my family divorced or suffered through miserable marriages. The "five points of happiness", I walk away from today feeling none of them. And maybe it is enough is enough.
Did dad have days like this? Sure wish I could ask him.