Me Not Being Emo On My LJ... oh wait.
all jokes aside, what a depressing mood i am in, i do rather hope i feel cheeryier in the more. i feel as if im searching for something, but so badly that whenever i met someone new (not a girl/guy thing) i feel like im cligy, too much too fast, it upsets me, like im missing all those sublties of patience and people. Also im feeling like im more myself then ever, and yet my shyness is so much in the way, i can't talk to people i should and my mind freezes. argh, its such a well... piss off? Oh well im sur ethings will start moving along sooner or later. they all ways do. i wish i wasn't out of things to tlak about with alot of people. maybe im not doing enough outside of school and work, who knows. argh other than this silly moment, getting my new sax, working hard and generally having fun. so why am i upset? lifes silly sometimes.