Welcome to Self-pity!
did I really survive the last five years just to become a hikikomori-in-training? this is just sad...I mean really, just pathetic.
sometimes I hate myself for being into BL/yaoi...I hate that I keep checking every day for the new Gravitation dj to be posted... I hate all my
kinks. it's really just me trying to fill in the gap. that empty space. it doesn't work much, and afterwards I usually hate myself even more...but it's better than nothing isn't it?
I hate being alone. I can't stand it. but the thing is that I will. I'll stand it even if it means another 18 years of being like this. and I'll just take it all in stride telling myself that things will get better next year, that maybe my luck with people will change and I can find someone who can tolerate me and not ditch me the second someone more entertaining walks by. when I know perfectly well that I am completely incapable of drawing positive attention to myself.
screw this, I think I'll just go hide under a rock somewhere..
/ending self-pity mode.
still working on the meme...sorry. but I did make some icons today...or yesterday rather since it's 3 am...
sometimes I hate myself for being into BL/yaoi...I hate that I keep checking every day for the new Gravitation dj to be posted... I hate all my
kinks. it's really just me trying to fill in the gap. that empty space. it doesn't work much, and afterwards I usually hate myself even more...but it's better than nothing isn't it?
I hate being alone. I can't stand it. but the thing is that I will. I'll stand it even if it means another 18 years of being like this. and I'll just take it all in stride telling myself that things will get better next year, that maybe my luck with people will change and I can find someone who can tolerate me and not ditch me the second someone more entertaining walks by. when I know perfectly well that I am completely incapable of drawing positive attention to myself.
screw this, I think I'll just go hide under a rock somewhere..
/ending self-pity mode.
still working on the meme...sorry. but I did make some icons today...or yesterday rather since it's 3 am...