2012
It's funny how you can look back and see how everything has changed, all just in the span of 1 year. You plough on, thinking how mundane and static everything is and before you know it, all you thought would remain stagnant has suddenly altered and your landscape of things, no matter how blurred or disoriented by emotions, will inevitably be able to concede to the fact that - yes, everything has changed.
Call this naïve, but I believe that in the long run everything is going to be fine. Things might look horrible and bleak and unpromising now, but I always believe that there's something that propels you forward even if it feels like your world just crashed down onto you. Or maybe it's just human nature because fundamentally, all of us know only one way to go - ahead. You can't go back. You can't reverse decisions or right past wrongs. All you can do is just move on and hope for the best. You can either think of the worst-case scenario, or you could dream a little bigger. That maybe, there's a light at the end. Maybe, you'd look back at this one day and think, "Wow, that was some tough shit, but I made it through and I'm happier now."
Ten years from now, that's all I want to be: happy.
I want to be, preferably, in a profession where I enjoy my work no matter how arduous the tasks or long the hours. As long as I'm doing something I genuinely, passionately enjoy, I'm pretty certain that's my key to happiness.
In the end, I know everything is going to be okay. If it's not okay, it's not the end. That's what I believe.
How about you?
(PS: You may have deduced I have broken up with my ex boyfriend. Well, a month back actually. Or slightly more. I don't know, I don't really keep count. Have I moved on? Well, yes. In the sense that I'm not ever expecting a future relationship with him even if that's what he said to me before. Or any other guy, actually. I think I'm going to be single for a very long while. No, I don't hate him. We're friends, still. Because he's a genuinely nice guy and seriously the last person on earth you'd ever label an ass. In fact I don't think I could call him that even if he was the last person on earth. He's just so impossibly nice. God. Next time, remind me to date assholes. I'm joking.
& Kay if you're reading this, I love you & I hope your family are all okay. *hugs*)
Call this naïve, but I believe that in the long run everything is going to be fine. Things might look horrible and bleak and unpromising now, but I always believe that there's something that propels you forward even if it feels like your world just crashed down onto you. Or maybe it's just human nature because fundamentally, all of us know only one way to go - ahead. You can't go back. You can't reverse decisions or right past wrongs. All you can do is just move on and hope for the best. You can either think of the worst-case scenario, or you could dream a little bigger. That maybe, there's a light at the end. Maybe, you'd look back at this one day and think, "Wow, that was some tough shit, but I made it through and I'm happier now."
Ten years from now, that's all I want to be: happy.
I want to be, preferably, in a profession where I enjoy my work no matter how arduous the tasks or long the hours. As long as I'm doing something I genuinely, passionately enjoy, I'm pretty certain that's my key to happiness.
In the end, I know everything is going to be okay. If it's not okay, it's not the end. That's what I believe.
How about you?
(PS: You may have deduced I have broken up with my ex boyfriend. Well, a month back actually. Or slightly more. I don't know, I don't really keep count. Have I moved on? Well, yes. In the sense that I'm not ever expecting a future relationship with him even if that's what he said to me before. Or any other guy, actually. I think I'm going to be single for a very long while. No, I don't hate him. We're friends, still. Because he's a genuinely nice guy and seriously the last person on earth you'd ever label an ass. In fact I don't think I could call him that even if he was the last person on earth. He's just so impossibly nice. God. Next time, remind me to date assholes. I'm joking.
& Kay if you're reading this, I love you & I hope your family are all okay. *hugs*)