How do we reach normal?

[hackel137]

I had a rather frustrating night last night.  My car wouldn't start in the morning, because the battery (which I've had checked twice now) was drained, and my grandpa had loaned my jumper cables to my cousin, so I had to take the bus to work.  That's not the end of the world--it took 70 minutes and I was 2 hours late to work.  Oh well

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[hackel137]

Thanks for all of your thoughts. As I read what I wrote again from a slightly more awake perspective, I realize it was a bit of a rambling rant. What I was trying to get at is not just "I want to be normal," because it's really far from it. But I would like, socially, to at least get up to the higher baseline of social knowledge and activity that I've seen in others my whole life, in high school, college, and beyond. And to the point of living where I can say, "No, I don't want to do this because I don't like it," not because I am so sheltered from it that I have no exposure or way in.

And I certainly have no intention of starting drinking to solve my problems, I was just trying to pinpoint some of the things that separate me from a lot of the people I see at a higher level socially. That and just putting them down a bit.

I should also add that I don't mean to suggest I don't like all of the friendships I do have, they are great. I very much agree with you, Dave, I enjoy it a lot when we all get together. But I don't have the kind of friends (right now, at least) that you just see all the time, assume you'll hang out with every other day, sit on the big couch with in the coffee shop every night--oh wait, drifting into TV again, sorry! One thing I do realize is how much I loved living in the house on Ontario, I miss that.

Anyway, I think this was also triggered by how much this summer has sucked with my work schedule, rarely being able to see anyone, just working and sleeping all the time, it takes its toll. I expect that will get quite a bit better in a couple weeks when I'm only on part-time. Ahh, I can't wait! Well, thanks for listening, and see you next week!