cny blues
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! Yeah even though its already the 11th day of CNY, its still cny! haha. Took me forever to blog, i know. Well cant blame me. The past few weeks has been nothing but pure torture and i've been slogging my guts out. and its only going to get worse from now on! i'm supposed to be studying for my quiz later on but here i am blogging because i really cant stand it anymore! recess week is next week but i totally dread it to the max. it's going to be HORRIBLE. :(((
and yesterday, shuying has finally left for korea:( NOOOOOOO :(( i miss her already omg. im so gg to get a webcam so i can skype with her soon. damnit. and i still havent gotten my hard drive yet. hmmmm shld i wait for the damn IT fair... but i hate the crowd there! rawrss. ahhh life is going to be so different with shuying not here anymore. i've been so used to her being a part of my life its just going to be weird. now i've to head to church on my own on the weeks that steph has KJ! sighs. it seems like everyone is flying off this week. josia and shuying has left and soon maria,christa and chris will leave too... not to forget dear donaphan who has just left not long ago haha. i will never forget his "warsaw vs krakow airplane light analogy" xDDDD US suddenly seems very far away when i think of the amount of work that still needs to be done this semester. i dont know if its a good thing though. because i'm no longer as excited about it as i was. the worst thing is i have no idea why >< things have been rather weird lately. working in japan used to be my dream but i'm not sure about it anymore. Recently there's the uni-qlo recruitment which allows us to work in japan if we got the job. but instead of immediately applying for it, i was hesitant about it precisely because of the part which requires me to work in japan for many years. it's like, i feel like i'm no longer as ready to leave as i was. if it was in the past, i'd jump at the chance. but now, suddenly the thought of leaving all my family, friends and loved ones behind and going alone into a foreign country to work sounds scary and lonely and sad, even though it IS japan. what on earth is happening to me?? so in the end, i didnt apply for that job. which brings me to another thing. i've not applied for a single job at all, when everyone around me is so busy applying for every single job that is available for application! speaking of which, the below scenario keeps on happening:
friend: how's your job search?
me: i haven even applied for a single job yet.
friend: *shocked face* HUH WHY?!
me: .....
i'm SO sick of it! and it's irritating the hell outta me! once again, i seriously think i'm in the wrong course. but oh wells. whatever. life sucks. but You are the only One who keeps me going:)
on a side note, been doing some fingerstyle recently. and its fun!! muahahaha its such an addiction =/
Pが私の一番。ずっと。
and yesterday, shuying has finally left for korea:( NOOOOOOO :(( i miss her already omg. im so gg to get a webcam so i can skype with her soon. damnit. and i still havent gotten my hard drive yet. hmmmm shld i wait for the damn IT fair... but i hate the crowd there! rawrss. ahhh life is going to be so different with shuying not here anymore. i've been so used to her being a part of my life its just going to be weird. now i've to head to church on my own on the weeks that steph has KJ! sighs. it seems like everyone is flying off this week. josia and shuying has left and soon maria,christa and chris will leave too... not to forget dear donaphan who has just left not long ago haha. i will never forget his "warsaw vs krakow airplane light analogy" xDDDD US suddenly seems very far away when i think of the amount of work that still needs to be done this semester. i dont know if its a good thing though. because i'm no longer as excited about it as i was. the worst thing is i have no idea why >< things have been rather weird lately. working in japan used to be my dream but i'm not sure about it anymore. Recently there's the uni-qlo recruitment which allows us to work in japan if we got the job. but instead of immediately applying for it, i was hesitant about it precisely because of the part which requires me to work in japan for many years. it's like, i feel like i'm no longer as ready to leave as i was. if it was in the past, i'd jump at the chance. but now, suddenly the thought of leaving all my family, friends and loved ones behind and going alone into a foreign country to work sounds scary and lonely and sad, even though it IS japan. what on earth is happening to me?? so in the end, i didnt apply for that job. which brings me to another thing. i've not applied for a single job at all, when everyone around me is so busy applying for every single job that is available for application! speaking of which, the below scenario keeps on happening:
friend: how's your job search?
me: i haven even applied for a single job yet.
friend: *shocked face* HUH WHY?!
me: .....
i'm SO sick of it! and it's irritating the hell outta me! once again, i seriously think i'm in the wrong course. but oh wells. whatever. life sucks. but You are the only One who keeps me going:)
on a side note, been doing some fingerstyle recently. and its fun!! muahahaha its such an addiction =/
Pが私の一番。ずっと。