LIFE... To date... For now...
Birthday
So my birthday celebration is not exactly over... With the last celebration i'm gonna have with Wing this Saturday, it'll mark the official ending of my celebration...
Alot of my friends were kinda shocked that my birthday celebration lasted this long, it begins with:
01) John on the 18th
02) Chap & Co. on the 19th
03) Gary & Co. on the 20th
04) Ben & Co. on the 21st
05) Doreen & Co. on the 22nd
06) Glenn (Lunch)/ HuiJun (Dinner) on the 24th
07) Clar on the 25th (cancelled)
08) PH & Max on the 26th
09) Jez & Co on the 27th
10) Veron & Co. on 1st July
11) Shameer on 3rd July
12) Wing on 4th July
13) Joanne & Co 8th July
Of cos i got alot of flak from friend jokingly bitching that it's like i'm celebrating my 80th birthday... But yes, this is one of the more hectic years... Normally i would only have 4-5 sessions... And the reason i have so many sessions is becos i do not have the habit of mixing friends... It's way too complicated if people do not get along and you are stuck in the middle... So no, i do not like to mix friends and thus my social calendar becomes a little bit more pack especially during my birthday...
And the fact that they wanna spend time and celebrate with me was not lost... I appreciate it and i'm deeply touched... I always think that one should be honoured when other people chooses to spend their precious time with you... And i dun think it is low self esteem talking here... I'd like to think that people can remember your birthdays and they can always send you a bithday greeting via email or sms or whatever... But to take time out to meet you and treat you dinner or what not, i think it's a previledge... So yes, i do think i am extrememly fortunate to have so many friends who not only remember my special day, but chooses to celebrate with me...
So thank you friends... I am humbled and deeply touched... :)
Snapping out of it
Yes, i do think i have finally snapped out of it... Getting over people isn't one of my strongest suits (at least i found out it wasn't)... So when the thought that you are not 'the chosen one get over it already!!!!' sets in it becomes extremely liberating at some level...
I was looking at one of the Dan Savages Youtube the other day and this clip spoke to me particularly:
"...have nothing to do with him for at least a year and a half, 18 months... Don't even talk, maybe send him a fucking postcard 'In Rome... Sucking cock... Love...' But you can't feed his obsession..."
"Sometimes the nicest thing to do when you end something is to go away... It can feel like the mature, older person thing to do, to stay friends. But if you're the dump-er, you have certain responsiblities, beyond just getting rid of this person, you have the responsibility not to draw out their dependence, by giving them a little bit, to let them live in false hope, by giving them a little bit... right? You have the responsiblity to kinda cut it off... Your presence in their lives is not a consolation prize when you dump someone, it's often a torment..."
So i'm not going to pick on the scabs... I realise that not everyone is everyone's type... One thing in life is that the people you are attracted to dun always find you attractive and vice versa... Which is why it's so special if you find someone you like whom likes you back...
But with people whom you like and dun feel the same way, there's still a chance to be friends (after a long while of absense of cos)... I mean, there must be a reason why you 2 clicked right?
So, i guess i'm ok now... I'm ok with B and i'm ok with SD...
And most importantly... I'm ok with myself... :)
So my birthday celebration is not exactly over... With the last celebration i'm gonna have with Wing this Saturday, it'll mark the official ending of my celebration...
Alot of my friends were kinda shocked that my birthday celebration lasted this long, it begins with:
01) John on the 18th
02) Chap & Co. on the 19th
03) Gary & Co. on the 20th
04) Ben & Co. on the 21st
05) Doreen & Co. on the 22nd
06) Glenn (Lunch)/ HuiJun (Dinner) on the 24th
07) Clar on the 25th (cancelled)
08) PH & Max on the 26th
09) Jez & Co on the 27th
10) Veron & Co. on 1st July
11) Shameer on 3rd July
12) Wing on 4th July
13) Joanne & Co 8th July
Of cos i got alot of flak from friend jokingly bitching that it's like i'm celebrating my 80th birthday... But yes, this is one of the more hectic years... Normally i would only have 4-5 sessions... And the reason i have so many sessions is becos i do not have the habit of mixing friends... It's way too complicated if people do not get along and you are stuck in the middle... So no, i do not like to mix friends and thus my social calendar becomes a little bit more pack especially during my birthday...
And the fact that they wanna spend time and celebrate with me was not lost... I appreciate it and i'm deeply touched... I always think that one should be honoured when other people chooses to spend their precious time with you... And i dun think it is low self esteem talking here... I'd like to think that people can remember your birthdays and they can always send you a bithday greeting via email or sms or whatever... But to take time out to meet you and treat you dinner or what not, i think it's a previledge... So yes, i do think i am extrememly fortunate to have so many friends who not only remember my special day, but chooses to celebrate with me...
So thank you friends... I am humbled and deeply touched... :)
Snapping out of it
Yes, i do think i have finally snapped out of it... Getting over people isn't one of my strongest suits (at least i found out it wasn't)... So when the thought that you are not 'the chosen one get over it already!!!!' sets in it becomes extremely liberating at some level...
I was looking at one of the Dan Savages Youtube the other day and this clip spoke to me particularly:
Click to view"...have nothing to do with him for at least a year and a half, 18 months... Don't even talk, maybe send him a fucking postcard 'In Rome... Sucking cock... Love...' But you can't feed his obsession..."
"Sometimes the nicest thing to do when you end something is to go away... It can feel like the mature, older person thing to do, to stay friends. But if you're the dump-er, you have certain responsiblities, beyond just getting rid of this person, you have the responsibility not to draw out their dependence, by giving them a little bit, to let them live in false hope, by giving them a little bit... right? You have the responsiblity to kinda cut it off... Your presence in their lives is not a consolation prize when you dump someone, it's often a torment..."
So i'm not going to pick on the scabs... I realise that not everyone is everyone's type... One thing in life is that the people you are attracted to dun always find you attractive and vice versa... Which is why it's so special if you find someone you like whom likes you back...
But with people whom you like and dun feel the same way, there's still a chance to be friends (after a long while of absense of cos)... I mean, there must be a reason why you 2 clicked right?
So, i guess i'm ok now... I'm ok with B and i'm ok with SD...
And most importantly... I'm ok with myself... :)