You possess my heart

May 30, 2008 00:16

Death Cab for Cutie songs have a tendency to resonate deep within me. Hence why "Someday You Will Be Loved" is my ring tone. (That and I am too cheap to buy another one.) Christopher introduced me to the new album. Narrow Stairs. When "I Will Possess Your Heart" started to play, I found myself looking inward and the song just grabbed me. The beginning of the song has a trance-like quality to it, and when I heard it for the first time, I found myself staring at the clouds as I processed all of the things that have been on my mind lately.

It's funny how certain Death Cab songs just suit where I am at a given point in time. What is my facebook status, but "Stephanie is reminding herself that her love story is already in progress." The idea that someone is already in love with me, but I'm just not there yet....it gives me hope. The song is so beautifully poetic.

I get cynical about love sometimes. And when Christopher told me a slightly ridiculous love story about a friend...I was just like "No, that doesn't happen, shut up."

I've been slightly bitter lately when it comes to matters of the heart. Can you tell? I'm so idealistic, but right now I've been in a bit of a defeated mode. (Suddenly I am a single twenty-something. It's a cultural right of passage. It's chock full of meaning. And frustration.) I have to keep telling myself that love will come and first I need to love myself. Easier said than done.

How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me
It's like a book elegantly bound, but in a language that you can't read - just yet
You gotta spend some time--love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find--love, I will possess your heart (x2)

There are days when outside your window, I see my reflection as I slowly pass
And I long for this mirrored perspective, when we'll be lovers, lovers at last
You gotta spend some time--love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find--love, I will possess your heart(x2)

I will possess your heart (x2)

You reject my advances and desperate pleas
I won't let you, let me down so easily, so easily

You gotta spend some time--love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find--love, I will possess your heart (x3)

I will possess your heart (x2)

Today after I bought the album, I listened to the song I don't know how many times. But as I listened to it the first time, wind blowing in my hair and the golden sun gleaming on the green trees that frame the back roads, it suddenly came to me. I was listening to the song thinking of a certain gentleman, when all of the sudden I realized that God wanted to possess my heart. And I realized how much the song paralleled how God pursues us. That until our hearts melt, they cannot read the language of His love. But it's there. It's written. It's just a matter of when.

And I realized God just wanted to spend some time with me. He wants my heart. And He will continue to pursue me. Always.

The rocks really do cry out.
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