one shitstorm after another
After all the information i looked up on turtles and all the money i spent on getting oswald a cage and all the times i thought he was dead and cried about it he really is dead i tried to wake him up like i always do to reassure myself hes still alive and no response i wonder if those worms fucked him up i dont know what it is but it was me and tals baby boy and now hes some stiff disgusting smelly turtle that i need to hurry up and get out of my house he needs a funeral really soon and i am making arrangements for people to come and pay they're reguards we were all big oswald fans!im so depressed... oswald then work and on monday school will start bothering me again im thinking about moving away though far away from all of this going somewhere and starting completly over meeting new girls and guys that have no reason to be shisty to me or to hurt me i know there will be troubles there but in the end everything will be ok i think its best with life being the way it is now running actually seems like the answer i will talk to my mom on monday after the meeting with the school and see what she thinks about me goinh to live with my aunt but im so mad that people got mad at me over the whole school thing i know what was said to me who said what and right from wrong and fuck whoever doesnt agree if your out there god like talia says you are, THEN FUCK YOU thanks for this constantly trying life that makes me want to rip my skin of my body and curl up in a dark hole where i too will await my end but you know what theres something inside of me that doesnt really want me to die thats why im still here maybe i am just a little bit stronger then i give myself credit for maybe not but i guess ill see no ones home to go hang out with tonight and if they were then they'd probally have some excuse to be unavailable me and keysha were supposed to chill and i dont think thats happening anymore tonight cuz shes in this whole attidtude of how im not good enough for her because i have no freedom at all and she has a whole fucking bunch that she doesnt appreciate and i wish so much that i could be her but sometimes i dont because she isnt even happy with her self sometimes but i guess ill see whats going on with all the people i used to call friends after i finish sorting through my life because not ones checked up on me since ive been out of school not emailed me or called me or even left me a message on aim talia didnt even text me back when i told her about oswald but i came in this world by myself and i guess thats how im going out i jsut hope talia texts me soon because oswald is starting to stink and i plan to have him outta here by monday!