everythings a mess
everythings a mess derricks in trouble no one seems to help did something happen to him while he was in NY that he cant remember or doesnt know about is it a family thing thats about to spread i dunno i have no clue what to do about this whole david thing is it right to just tell myself to forget all about him is he really just another asshole or can he actually be like the only guy in the world that isnt an asshole ill really start to ignore him if he makes the dumb mistake im almost sure hes about to do i guess ill watch and wait with that i dont know what the fuck im going to do about this man at my school who is always harrasing me with comments about me and him having sex i feel so insecure on even days and its not fair to me at all i think maybe i deserve to suffer...because it seems like evertime i overcome one of lifes obstacles another one just appears outta nowhere its like i was put on this earth to be faced with nothing but depressing shit and i dunno why but i feel like the oddball when i talk to the little bit of friends that i actually do have because i feel kinda like i drag people down and i never help build people up life just one big shit storm after another isnt it?emma seems to really wanna be part of the family the way she just throws our family shit around like its the latest gossip EMMA FUCK YOU god damn i wish you knew how much it hurt to hear that your spreadin derricks shit around like that what a grimmy bitch