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i just dont know what to think anymore. how to think. what to think about. everything i think about turns out to be a disaster. and i'm tired of that. i just want to be able to think about something and have it not make me want to cry for once. it seems that everything, and i mean EVERYTHING, leads to something that makes me sad. that's just wrong.
i wish everyone could be happy. you're not happy. at all. and i know it. but i'm always here. always. even if it doesnt seem like it. and i always care. even if im not too great at showing it. i wish i was. im sorry im not perfect. i wish i could be just for you.
Karin, my japanese love. she will be missed terribly in washington and we are all waiting for her return for college. can you say huge party? because I can. and we'll be seniors so fuck yes we'll know how to party. not like we dont already. we're pretty amazing like that and can make an awesome time with just us three.
i want it to be the weekend. i'll get to go back to kent. go to church. party. go on a youthgroup road trip. okay so i just realized. i put party inbetween the church things. haha. thats no good. ah well. it'll be another amazing time. just like all the other times i'm with you. sure it'll be weird without her. but we'll make the most of it. definitly.
i haven't eaten all day. i haven't taken my pills. so i better go do that. or at least go take my pills.
i wish everyone could be happy. you're not happy. at all. and i know it. but i'm always here. always. even if it doesnt seem like it. and i always care. even if im not too great at showing it. i wish i was. im sorry im not perfect. i wish i could be just for you.
Karin, my japanese love. she will be missed terribly in washington and we are all waiting for her return for college. can you say huge party? because I can. and we'll be seniors so fuck yes we'll know how to party. not like we dont already. we're pretty amazing like that and can make an awesome time with just us three.
i want it to be the weekend. i'll get to go back to kent. go to church. party. go on a youthgroup road trip. okay so i just realized. i put party inbetween the church things. haha. thats no good. ah well. it'll be another amazing time. just like all the other times i'm with you. sure it'll be weird without her. but we'll make the most of it. definitly.
i haven't eaten all day. i haven't taken my pills. so i better go do that. or at least go take my pills.