I guess you don't remember pushing me towards my room and telling me to fucking go for it. If you had said, "Emily, no, don't do that while I'm here," I wouldn't have. You acted like and told me that you were okay with it. You asked for some, but I guess you don't remember that either.
It's all one way though, right? Coca bad, booze is just fine though. Nevermind that both are addictive, both destroy your body, both can be overdosed on, but alcohol withdrawl can kill you, while withdrawl from coke can't. Coke keeps you up for days and supresses your appetitie. Booze slows down your metabolism. Coke wears away at your nasal, sinuses, and throat. Booze wears away at your liver and kidneys. You get drunk way more than I get spun. Booze is cheaper and more acceptable.
If I become a drunk will you be happy? How about I get drunk every night, that's clean...right? Or, maybe I'll spend all my time and money on getting stoned out of my mind everyday. That's clean, too...right? Weed can't kill me...oh wait, maybe it could. Last time I smoked I couldn't breathe and I was twitching so fiercely that I wanted to cry because I was so afraid. That would be okay though, right? In another post you said that you wanted to smoke your life away...you don't see a problem with that? I get coked out on and off for a week and all of the sudden I'm not clean? You asked for some.
I don't do it every night. I don't do it by myself. Doesn't that mean anything? I know I'm being defensive, but I honestly feel like you don't know much about anything that's going on with me or my life.
you know what? fuck it. maybe i dont care to know. yeah, emily, condescend me for being a stoner. i NEVER said you were a bad person. i never looked down on you because of it. i dont want to be involved with that in any way shape or form, because i know i will want to do it, and i know i will like it, and i know i will fuck my life up. maybe you wont. never over-estimate yourself, em.
fuck this. fuck me. fuck you.
i dont have any fucks left to give to you.
furthermore, if my being a stoner is such a big fucking deal, then why havn't you ever said, "kayla, i'm worried about you..." NO. you only care about what i do with my life when i have an opinion on yours.
It's all one way though, right? Coca bad, booze is just fine though. Nevermind that both are addictive, both destroy your body, both can be overdosed on, but alcohol withdrawl can kill you, while withdrawl from coke can't. Coke keeps you up for days and supresses your appetitie. Booze slows down your metabolism. Coke wears away at your nasal, sinuses, and throat. Booze wears away at your liver and kidneys. You get drunk way more than I get spun. Booze is cheaper and more acceptable.
If I become a drunk will you be happy? How about I get drunk every night, that's clean...right? Or, maybe I'll spend all my time and money on getting stoned out of my mind everyday. That's clean, too...right? Weed can't kill me...oh wait, maybe it could. Last time I smoked I couldn't breathe and I was twitching so fiercely that I wanted to cry because I was so afraid. That would be okay though, right? In another post you said that you wanted to smoke your life away...you don't see a problem with that? I get coked out on and off for a week and all of the sudden I'm not clean? You asked for some.
I don't do it every night. I don't do it by myself. Doesn't that mean anything? I know I'm being defensive, but I honestly feel like you don't know much about anything that's going on with me or my life.
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fuck this. fuck me. fuck you.
i dont have any fucks left to give to you.
furthermore, if my being a stoner is such a big fucking deal, then why havn't you ever said, "kayla, i'm worried about you..." NO. you only care about what i do with my life when i have an opinion on yours.
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