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Title: Together
Pairing: KyuSaeng
Rating: G
Warnings: -
Notes: it's not exactly what I really wanted to write, but well XD I still hope that this fiction is okay >.< XD
Summary: Kyu Jong can't get over the time they were together as five. (I so suck with summarys, we're just enemies XDD)
This would be our last stage, our last performance as five, the last time we could be together and sing.
I could see in the others eyes that they felt the same way, finally realizing that it was over after this, that there wouldn't be SS501 for a time anymore.
My eyes reached Young Saeng and I wasn't sure what I should read in his face. I knew him for a time now, but this was the first time I couldn't see what he was thinking, what he was feeling. It hurt me to see him like this, but I hadn't any words to cheer him up this time. And I wasn't sure if it would help or make it more worse.
We could hear the screams and shouts, when the MCs said our names, a last smile in every face, a last deep breath before the music started.
I opened my eyes and was confused to see the ceiling of my own room. Confused I sat up, just to see that I seemed to fall asleep on my bed. Another dream.
It wasn't the first time that I had dreams like this. They came up every night and sometimes I was really happy to have them. It was something that reminded me where my heart was and what I missed the most at the moment. But on the other side I was really tired of them because I didn't understand what they wanted to show me.
I stood up and walked to the window. It was the end of August, it was really warm outside and everything smelled like summer. More than two months already past after our last stage and everyone else already decided to join another company, but I wasn't sure, if I should as well. I liked that we were together as five and I knew that we always would be that, but I wasn't sure if I was ready for a solo career.
It took a while until I noticed that my phone rang and without seeing who called me I took the call.
“Since when did you take so long to answer your phone?”
I smiled. “I had in on vibration.”
“Nothing new.” A shy laugh. “You should change this.”
“It's been a while, Young Saeng.”
He laughed again. “It wasn't my fault, you know?”
Yeah, he was right, the last two months I mostly avoid callings from the others. I felt helpless somehow, I didn't want to talk with them about their own things, so I just overheard my phone. Young Saeng tried to call me often, but I only answered the phone twice. I wasn't in the mood to talk with him and I guess, if I had looked on my phone this time, I hadn't answered it again.
“Yes, I'm sorry.”
“”I believe you this time.”
I laughed and I knew that he was smiling as well. “Why did you call anyway?”
“I wanted to ask if you already know which company you'll join.”
I made a face and was happy that he wouldn't see that. “I'm not sure. Somehow I think that it's too early to decide.”
He didn't say anything to that, but I was sure that he thought about it.
“The others already did.” He said then. “But I think the same way.”
“You didn't signed a contract yet?” I was really surprised because I was sure that everyone would love to have him and his voice.
“No. Somehow I...” he stopped and laughed.
“What?”
“Somehow I thought I wait until you decided and we could join the same company.”
My heart stopped a beat, just to beat faster again. With Young Saeng in the same company? Maybe this wasn't a bad idea, it would mean, it would be somehow like before, at least we were together and I hadn't be alone somewhere else.
“What do you think?” His voice was unsure.
“It would be nice to be together with you somewhere.” After I said this, I bit my lips. This was kinda suggestive and I hoped that he didn't understand it wrong.
We didn't talk much after this, just random daily things, if we heard something from the others and how life's going. After he hung up I felt really relieved, but I still didn't know if this all would work out.
It already was October and really cold when I walked down the streets home again. I hadn't heard anything again from Young Saeng and I wonder how he had been since our talk. I didn't dare to call him, I wasn't sure if I was able to have something to talk with him and so I waited the weeks, but he didn't call as well.
I was so deep in my thoughts that I didn't notice anything around me and bumped into a person.
“I'm sorry.” I murmured an excuse and wanted to hurry up again.
“You should be and not only for this.” A soft voice spoke and I suddenly turned around to look at a smiling Young Saeng. “You shouldn't have your mind in the clouds, Kyu Jong.” He came closer, still smiling. “Do you mind drinking something with me?”
“So what you've done the last weeks?”
We sat in a little coffee shop not far away from my home. He was starring at me right away, but I hardly could look at him. Somehow I felt guilty that I never contact him after our phone call and his wish to join the same company.
“Nothing much.” I answered. “My life's just boring, but this is okay.”
“I heard that you'll film some drama.”
“Yeah, they asked me and I said I'm interested.”
“You're the right one for drama, you're a nice guy, you're handsome.” He blushed.
I looked at him surprisingly. He was never the one to tell anyone about their lookings, specially never to me. I smiled, but didn't go any further to discuss that.
“Do you already decided on a company?”
“Do you never wonder why I want to be at the same as you?”
Did he really want to make me confused? I didn't know what he was doing, what his intention was.
“What do you mean?”
His blush didn't go away. He nervously played with his fingers. “I called you on purpose in August. I had a very good contract with one company, but I didn't want to go there alone, I was kinda afraid to be alone somewhere, that's why I called you.”
“You should know that I would come with you wherever you would go.” Now it was my time to blush hardly, but he didn't see it, he still played with his fingers.
“This means a lot to me, Kyu Jong.”
I took one of his hand, so he just had to stop playing with this and he looked up.
“I don't want our ways to be separated.”
I smiled, I had the same thought since he was mostly the reason why I was sad to not have group activities anymore.
“We're doing this together. Just like in old times, we both together.”
Pairing: KyuSaeng
Rating: G
Warnings: -
Notes: it's not exactly what I really wanted to write, but well XD I still hope that this fiction is okay >.< XD
Summary: Kyu Jong can't get over the time they were together as five. (I so suck with summarys, we're just enemies XDD)
This would be our last stage, our last performance as five, the last time we could be together and sing.
I could see in the others eyes that they felt the same way, finally realizing that it was over after this, that there wouldn't be SS501 for a time anymore.
My eyes reached Young Saeng and I wasn't sure what I should read in his face. I knew him for a time now, but this was the first time I couldn't see what he was thinking, what he was feeling. It hurt me to see him like this, but I hadn't any words to cheer him up this time. And I wasn't sure if it would help or make it more worse.
We could hear the screams and shouts, when the MCs said our names, a last smile in every face, a last deep breath before the music started.
I opened my eyes and was confused to see the ceiling of my own room. Confused I sat up, just to see that I seemed to fall asleep on my bed. Another dream.
It wasn't the first time that I had dreams like this. They came up every night and sometimes I was really happy to have them. It was something that reminded me where my heart was and what I missed the most at the moment. But on the other side I was really tired of them because I didn't understand what they wanted to show me.
I stood up and walked to the window. It was the end of August, it was really warm outside and everything smelled like summer. More than two months already past after our last stage and everyone else already decided to join another company, but I wasn't sure, if I should as well. I liked that we were together as five and I knew that we always would be that, but I wasn't sure if I was ready for a solo career.
It took a while until I noticed that my phone rang and without seeing who called me I took the call.
“Since when did you take so long to answer your phone?”
I smiled. “I had in on vibration.”
“Nothing new.” A shy laugh. “You should change this.”
“It's been a while, Young Saeng.”
He laughed again. “It wasn't my fault, you know?”
Yeah, he was right, the last two months I mostly avoid callings from the others. I felt helpless somehow, I didn't want to talk with them about their own things, so I just overheard my phone. Young Saeng tried to call me often, but I only answered the phone twice. I wasn't in the mood to talk with him and I guess, if I had looked on my phone this time, I hadn't answered it again.
“Yes, I'm sorry.”
“”I believe you this time.”
I laughed and I knew that he was smiling as well. “Why did you call anyway?”
“I wanted to ask if you already know which company you'll join.”
I made a face and was happy that he wouldn't see that. “I'm not sure. Somehow I think that it's too early to decide.”
He didn't say anything to that, but I was sure that he thought about it.
“The others already did.” He said then. “But I think the same way.”
“You didn't signed a contract yet?” I was really surprised because I was sure that everyone would love to have him and his voice.
“No. Somehow I...” he stopped and laughed.
“What?”
“Somehow I thought I wait until you decided and we could join the same company.”
My heart stopped a beat, just to beat faster again. With Young Saeng in the same company? Maybe this wasn't a bad idea, it would mean, it would be somehow like before, at least we were together and I hadn't be alone somewhere else.
“What do you think?” His voice was unsure.
“It would be nice to be together with you somewhere.” After I said this, I bit my lips. This was kinda suggestive and I hoped that he didn't understand it wrong.
We didn't talk much after this, just random daily things, if we heard something from the others and how life's going. After he hung up I felt really relieved, but I still didn't know if this all would work out.
It already was October and really cold when I walked down the streets home again. I hadn't heard anything again from Young Saeng and I wonder how he had been since our talk. I didn't dare to call him, I wasn't sure if I was able to have something to talk with him and so I waited the weeks, but he didn't call as well.
I was so deep in my thoughts that I didn't notice anything around me and bumped into a person.
“I'm sorry.” I murmured an excuse and wanted to hurry up again.
“You should be and not only for this.” A soft voice spoke and I suddenly turned around to look at a smiling Young Saeng. “You shouldn't have your mind in the clouds, Kyu Jong.” He came closer, still smiling. “Do you mind drinking something with me?”
“So what you've done the last weeks?”
We sat in a little coffee shop not far away from my home. He was starring at me right away, but I hardly could look at him. Somehow I felt guilty that I never contact him after our phone call and his wish to join the same company.
“Nothing much.” I answered. “My life's just boring, but this is okay.”
“I heard that you'll film some drama.”
“Yeah, they asked me and I said I'm interested.”
“You're the right one for drama, you're a nice guy, you're handsome.” He blushed.
I looked at him surprisingly. He was never the one to tell anyone about their lookings, specially never to me. I smiled, but didn't go any further to discuss that.
“Do you already decided on a company?”
“Do you never wonder why I want to be at the same as you?”
Did he really want to make me confused? I didn't know what he was doing, what his intention was.
“What do you mean?”
His blush didn't go away. He nervously played with his fingers. “I called you on purpose in August. I had a very good contract with one company, but I didn't want to go there alone, I was kinda afraid to be alone somewhere, that's why I called you.”
“You should know that I would come with you wherever you would go.” Now it was my time to blush hardly, but he didn't see it, he still played with his fingers.
“This means a lot to me, Kyu Jong.”
I took one of his hand, so he just had to stop playing with this and he looked up.
“I don't want our ways to be separated.”
I smiled, I had the same thought since he was mostly the reason why I was sad to not have group activities anymore.
“We're doing this together. Just like in old times, we both together.”